Overcoming anxiety. Removing the wool from your eyes.

Rebirth

 

It’s like I was asleep 
 
Our eyes were night lights -
 
Lucidly swaying mid-air
 
Between two little Gods:
 
Forgetting and recollecting
 
-
 
Everything happened underwater
 
My words were gargles of choked air
 
As my body curled inwards
 
Coiling back; foetal
 
Into Mother’s womb
 
-
 
Mother
 
-
 
Connected by a thread
 
Spun through your cipher
 
We come full circle -
 
Your memories are in my bones:
 
Holding myself as ice is shaved
 
Above me in December 20 years ago;
 
Sweaty and going deaf
 
To 90’s garage in Aiya Napa
 
We are one
 
-
 
Like you I suffer of the mind
 
Open minded to the point of leaking
 
I catch what remains with wet palms
 
And drink -
 
In the hope all goes back
 
With all the teen filtered out
 
Leaving behind the wool originally used
 
To sow me from ash
 
Into this toile of man
 
-
 
What were obsessions are now memories
 
The loved are the loathed
 
And don’t I love to loathe:
 
The past and her children -
 
That slow moving spider of time;
 
Her seeping sac of eggs
 
That drools over the fading, ebbing
 
Face of my past
 
-
 
Yet, still, reborn
 
Naked and blind -
 
Into the arms of myself
 
And the woman who came before me.
 
Internal motherhood begins:
 
Anxiety lost
 
And paradise is won -
 
A life worth living
 
Is a life on the run
 
-
 
Mother, thank you -
 
For the little skills you gave me
 
Scattered through my neurons;
 
Inlaid like diamond on pinheads
 
Self regulating 
 
My cerebral cognition -
 
-
 
Lucidly, onwards
 
From the jurisdiction of deities
 
Emotionally amputating
 
Old words
 
Old faces
 
Faces I venerated:
 
With distancing and forgetting
 
I cut, cut, cut
 
Till the skeleton of me is left
 
And the feeling takes over
 
The bliss -
 
The white heat -
 
Of building new skin
 
On new muscle
 
New face 
 
Old eyes
 
-
 
It’s good,
 
Very good -
 
To get your eyes back
 
And see everything you missed
 
While you were asleep
 

 


Submitted: January 07, 2014

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