The only way i can go is up now

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Young Adult  |  House: Booksie Classic
Autumn is at the lowest point in her 17year long life getting mixed up with a Jerk who she thought was a special guy she felt like she was stuck on the wrongside of the tracks trying to cover up her life at home and school and not let people in to her painful life until a suprising encounter with a guy begins to make her fell normal again

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The only way i can go is up now

Submitted: June 30, 2009

Autumn is at the lowest point in her 17year long life getting mixed up with a Jerk who she thought was a special guy she felt like she was stuck on the wrongside of the tracks trying to cover up her life at home and school and not let people in to her painful life until a suprising encounter with a guy begins to make her fell normal again Read Chapter

Take the gun and pull the trigger

Submitted: July 01, 2009

………… I looked at Bret gloating over his haul for the evening and felt numb and so tired I hadn’t slept for three days straight ... Read Chapter

How to silence a high school

Submitted: July 01, 2009

.................... I walked back inside the gym and out into the hallway leading back into the rest of the building I stopped outs... Read Chapter

Matt cracks

Submitted: July 01, 2009

.................... It got to the end of school I walked to my locker and grabbed my bag and books and walked out past where Matt was st... Read Chapter

They don't recognise me

Submitted: July 01, 2009

................. I walked out of the bathroom in Bret’s apartment He was lay on the bed. “There that’s better” He grinned lo... Read Chapter

He can move

Submitted: July 02, 2009

…………………. I turned away and ignored them and danced like I’d never danced before the extra pills Brett had given me taking... Read Chapter

So alone

Submitted: July 04, 2009

…………………… I faced the other way and pushed harder against him, Drew’s’ arm slid round the front of my waist so his han... Read Chapter

It comes out

Submitted: July 06, 2009

……………………… “I… I … wasn’t at a club” I said closing my eyes.   “Really Tabby” Matt smirked ... Read Chapter

Trying to hide it now is hard

Submitted: July 06, 2009

.................. Matt and I drove to school in silence getting out in the parking lot Matt sighed and leaned against his car I walked o... Read Chapter

Someone who was there

Submitted: July 06, 2009

............................ All I could hear was the sound of cleats running up the hall as Matt came to the nurses’ office followed b... Read Chapter

something i wasn't expecting to hear

Submitted: July 06, 2009

    …………….. Matt walked out past Dad into the hall before turning round and looking at him.   ... Read Chapter

More apologize and trust

Submitted: July 07, 2009

…………………………….Matt opened the door and let me walk in first Bryony and Maggie looked round and smiled at me. I took D... Read Chapter

Friends and enemys

Submitted: July 07, 2009

............................... I don’t think I saw more than 10 minutes of the movie before I fell asleep the first time in months I a... Read Chapter

Balloons, hugs and a free kiss

Submitted: July 07, 2009

.......... we heard a coughand looked round as the librarian looked over the top of her glasses at us we moved apart and looked back at o... Read Chapter

She doesn't need you anymore

Submitted: July 08, 2009

....................... Matt and Bryony walked back into school. Bryony nudged Matt and nodded to where Drew was stood hugging me Matt sm... Read Chapter

Laying it all out

Submitted: July 08, 2009

……………………… Drew pushed his hands in his pockets.   “You’re mad at me aren’t you” he asked. &nbs... Read Chapter

He knows almost everything

Submitted: July 08, 2009

................ “It’s hard to know where to start” I said playing with my nails. “What you see here is me, I’m broken and i’... Read Chapter

It's like i have a guarian angel

Submitted: July 08, 2009

.................. “I told you he hurt me and cheated on me” I said rubbing my neck Drew came over and sat next to me “And you’ve... Read Chapter

Should i feel like thins

Submitted: July 09, 2009

……………………… We finished getting changed and left Drew’s house to go to the store picking up the ice cream Drew was scoo... Read Chapter

Am I a hot peice of ass

Submitted: July 09, 2009

........................... We played so many games of pool because the girls obviously kept beating the guys.   “So much ... Read Chapter

A high and a low and a dress

Submitted: July 09, 2009

....................... Matt and B never did come out to watch the movie so we sat and watched it Drew was falling asleep about 20 minute... Read Chapter

You were dancing

Submitted: July 09, 2009

........................ I walked out of the dressing room.   “Nice color” Bryony smiled.   “Damn Autumn ... Read Chapter

Facing the devil

Submitted: July 10, 2009

…………………………….. Drew pulled back from me his eyes still on mine his hand still on the side of my face.   ... Read Chapter

Don't cross the line

Submitted: July 10, 2009

………………………… “You’re coming with me” Drew said looking at Matt and Luke “I just called Autumn to come met us an... Read Chapter

I'm past it, way past it

Submitted: July 13, 2009

........................ The game ended with us annihilating the other team we made our way to the school to wait for the guys the n... Read Chapter

Slow dance

Submitted: July 13, 2009

………………………………. By the time we got to the school the parking lot was already full and the music could be heard as s... Read Chapter

Snowing on a hot night

Submitted: July 13, 2009

.................... Drew rested his head against mine as we danced the words giving me goose bumps as the song finished I looked at him.... Read Chapter

Meet the family and a brickwall

Submitted: July 14, 2009

………………………… The next few weeks went quickly it was just after Thanksgiving the snow was already thick on the ground I ... Read Chapter

Sinking back down

Submitted: July 14, 2009

…………………… “Mike” Drew’s Mom said in horror. “Autumn he didn’t mean it”. “Bec don’t try to sugar c... Read Chapter

Light at the end of the tunnel

Submitted: July 14, 2009

................... “Where are you going” Mike asked.   “To make sure my girlfriend doesn’t do something she’d reg... Read Chapter

Mexico !!!!!!!!

Submitted: July 14, 2009

.......................... The six of us arrived in Mexico around 2 pm it was so nice stepping off the plane into the warm sun we got the... Read Chapter

Fun night

Submitted: July 14, 2009

......................... We opened the door and sure enough all three of the guys were already in the showers I walked in to our room an... Read Chapter

Where did they go

Submitted: July 15, 2009

…………………… We walked down the street toward the bar getting whistle’s and shouts from guys we walked past, Maggie nudged ... Read Chapter

A romantic night

Submitted: July 16, 2009

………………………… We all went back to the hotel and spent the afternoon in the pool Drew got out and looked at his phone, ... Read Chapter

Big news

Submitted: July 16, 2009

........................ “You remember meeting my Aunt Cassie” Drew said as we started to eat. “Yeah she was the one that ... Read Chapter

We'll be okay

Submitted: July 17, 2009

………………… What are you two doing” I laughed as they both skidded into me and Drew.   “We took their shoes”... Read Chapter

I get dragonflies

Submitted: July 17, 2009

..................... I’d just finished doing my hair as my bedroom door opened and Drew walked in.   “Hey you” I grin... Read Chapter

Hard work pays off

Submitted: July 18, 2009

................... I couldn’t wait for the next week to be over so we could get on the plane on Friday afternoon and fly down to Flori... Read Chapter

A second chance

Submitted: July 20, 2009

…………………….. We got in the Car and Joe drove us back toward the town to another smaller gated community and pulled into the... Read Chapter

Hooters

Submitted: July 20, 2009

.......................... Joe looked at both of us.   ‘We’ve decided on a house” Drew said sitting down next to his U... Read Chapter

Dancing all night and an offer

Submitted: July 20, 2009

.............................. We meet up with Trent’s friends and his girlfriend Leah in a club that was on the beach front.  ... Read Chapter

Did they really send him to me

Submitted: July 21, 2009

…………………….. I looked over to the pool to see two dragonflies skimming over the top of the water I immediately got goose bu... Read Chapter

Go for it

Submitted: July 21, 2009

........................ We walked down the stairs and out to the pool.   “Oh Trent said he was going to call you to arran... Read Chapter

Back to hell

Submitted: July 21, 2009

............................ We were soon on a flight back home the weekend had been so much fun I was now counting down the weeks till s... Read Chapter

Breaking point

Submitted: July 22, 2009

…………………… I stepped into the kitchen Becca came over and put her arms round me.   “You guys okay” she ask... Read Chapter

Finding things out

Submitted: July 22, 2009

...................... “You need us to come in with you guys” Drew asked as he and Trent got out of the truck with us.   ... Read Chapter

Closure

Submitted: July 22, 2009

......................  We got up and walked out of the bedroom Matt was talking in the living room to Trent they both looked round ... Read Chapter

New start

Submitted: July 22, 2009

............................. Both Matt and I went back to school and worked hard catching up so we could graduate. Prom came and went on... Read Chapter

Ignore it please

Submitted: July 23, 2009

……………………….. We walked back into the others and sat down Matt leaned across the table. “Did he show you” he... Read Chapter

A telling off and a Mustang

Submitted: July 23, 2009

....................................I walked back down the stairs and could here Becca talking to the three guys in the kitchen still Cas... Read Chapter

Make them proud

Submitted: July 31, 2014

........................ I went inside the house to get ready. I was sitting doing my hair when the door knocked. “It’s open... Read Chapter

Ready to Move

Submitted: July 24, 2009

………………….. We spent the next week packing up boxes Leah and Trent had stayed to help While Cassie and Joe and Tori had flown... Read Chapter

All in

Submitted: July 24, 2009

............................... By the time Sunday rolled around we were all like little kids excited to leave.   “Look tw... Read Chapter

New Life

Submitted: July 27, 2009

…………………………… I grabbed my tank and shorts and walked into the bathroom to change I picked up my brush and ran it thr... Read Chapter

What's he doing

Submitted: July 27, 2009

...................................We walked across the construction site talking and laughing we saw about 10 guys all sitting eating lu... Read Chapter

This can't be happening

Submitted: July 27, 2009

................................. We got to Joe and Cassie’s and walked inside.   “Sorry we’re late” I said walking ... Read Chapter

Old tricks

Submitted: July 27, 2009

……………………. I drove back towards the beach hitting the roof button sending it back the wind whipped my hair across my face ... Read Chapter

He answers

Submitted: July 27, 2009

............................. We pulled up outside the front of Cassie and Joe’s house Leah was stood o holding open the front door as ... Read Chapter

Just Shush

Submitted: July 28, 2009

………………….. Drew looked at Leah and sighed.   “I know I am” he said pulling her out of the room. “You can... Read Chapter

Explanations

Submitted: July 28, 2009

............................. I looked at him his face was serious.   “Just listen to my please I love you Autumn and I ne... Read Chapter

Dresses for Leah

Submitted: July 28, 2009

.......................... Things got better over the next week but I was trying to make up for the night Drew went AWOL with Cassie I wa... Read Chapter

Dinner with everyone

Submitted: July 28, 2009

....................... I started to laugh and walked out of the bathroom as I heard him get out of the shower for the second time he wal... Read Chapter

Cake, Cake, Cake

Submitted: July 29, 2009

…………………. “So you never said you could snowboard” Trent laughed nudging me, I glared at Matt. “What all Trent... Read Chapter

The only answer can be .......

Submitted: July 29, 2009

******* OKAY THE TRACK YOU NEED TO FIND IS ******       **** NICKELBACK *** NEXT GO ROUND ***   ... Read Chapter

Dress shopping again

Submitted: July 29, 2009

…………………… I sat on one of the stools watching as Joe and Mike set up a Karaoke machine in the living room, Leah walked ove... Read Chapter

Finally she finds one

Submitted: July 30, 2009

……………………Bryony got in the car with me and Sabrina went with Leah I pulled out of the parking lot and followed Leah. ... Read Chapter

Girls night

Submitted: July 30, 2009

............................. We walked out of the store and got in the cars and headed for our house, the guys were all round the pool w... Read Chapter

Nights out

Submitted: July 30, 2009

..................................... I was getting ready in my bathroom, Trent had already picked up Matt and they were heading down to ... Read Chapter

night and drama

Submitted: July 31, 2009

………………………… We were standing round a table talking and laughing.   “I feel like the oldest one in here... Read Chapter

Planning and a bruise

Submitted: July 31, 2009

.............................. We all went back to Cassie and Joe’s house. Trent, Joe and Matt were all back before we were and they we... Read Chapter

Drew's back YAY !!

Submitted: July 31, 2009

............................I walked into Cassie’s house and into the kitchen Cassie was sitting hugging a coffee to her with an icepac... Read Chapter

Next Contestant

Submitted: July 31, 2009

OKAY DON’T GET PISSY BUT FIND AND LISTEN TO ***NICEKLBACK***  ***NEXT CONTESTANT*** LISTEN TO IT AS YOU READ IT   &nb... Read Chapter

You think they will like it????

Submitted: August 03, 2009

………………………. “Lets go find somewhere else to eat” Matt said pulling Drew away before he could start again. B grabbed ... Read Chapter

Day before

Submitted: August 03, 2009

................... We got to Cassie and Joe’s house there was a whole heap of cars and trucks outside.   “No aren’t y... Read Chapter

Something borrowed

Submitted: August 03, 2009

............................... we spent the rest of the day and night relaxing and having fun, my phone rang. Trent * hey Autumn ... Read Chapter

400 guests

Submitted: August 03, 2009

  “I can’t wait to get the tie off” Drew whispered messing with it.   “I think you look sexy” I grinned ... Read Chapter

Old friends,new game, bad seafood

Submitted: August 03, 2009

...................... We all partied till 3 am I sat down as Trent and Leah left for the airport I put my feet in B’s lap as she ... Read Chapter

Big gam and new roomies

Submitted: August 04, 2009

………………. We watched the game it got to half time I turned round to talk to Luke.   “So how’s Oshkosh turning ... Read Chapter

Holy crap

Submitted: August 04, 2009

............................. we walked out of the room Drew put his arms round me and Kissed me. “What were you two doing” he as... Read Chapter

Oh Wow and a hot tub

Submitted: August 04, 2009

........................ I put my head on Drew’s shoulder.   ‘Wow I’m shocked” he said kissing the top of my head. ... Read Chapter

I'm scared

Submitted: August 04, 2009

................................... The next morning the sun woke us streaming through the windows Drew stroked my hair.   ... Read Chapter

The day before the surprise

Submitted: August 05, 2009

…………………… We pulled up at home and walked inside we could hear everyone out by the pool I slid open the door and stepped o... Read Chapter

Time for brunch

Submitted: August 05, 2009

.......................... We spent the day in the spa laughing and relaxing we even got B feeling better before we headed back to Cassie... Read Chapter

Who lied to who

Submitted: August 05, 2009

...............................I looked round at the dresses hung up mine was missing, “Hey Leah” she walked over to me as Becca ... Read Chapter

The letter

Submitted: August 06, 2009

………………. “Wow that is so pretty” Leah sighed as Matt opened the note.   “You want me to read this” he ask... Read Chapter

Perfect day

Submitted: August 07, 2009

…………………………. I finished getting my make up done Becca and Cassie walked in to the room.   “We’re goin... Read Chapter

A surprise wedding is one thing but a surprise visit from the stork !!!!!!

Submitted: August 07, 2009

…………………………… Everyone stood up clapping as Drew took my hand and B handed me back my flowers we walked back down the... Read Chapter

Missing him

Submitted: August 10, 2009

………………………. We got home and the next couple of months flew by work was so busy and Drew’ schedule was jam packed it wa... Read Chapter

Camp surprise

Submitted: August 11, 2009

………….Luke and Maggie were ready and waiting for me as I pulled into the drive, I got out of my car and walked in to the house. ... Read Chapter

What's going on ???

Submitted: August 11, 2009

.........................  Luke threw me my keys I handed them to Drew.   “Follow me I need to drop some things off a... Read Chapter

Whats he going to do when it sinks in!!!!!!

Submitted: August 11, 2009

..........................  We arrived at a restaurant with the full valet service.   ‘Dude they can’t be kicking y... Read Chapter

What a difference a year makes

Submitted: August 12, 2009

……………………………. Dinner was done and we were leaving the restaurant .   “So 11am Monday morning” Allen... Read Chapter

Meeting

Submitted: August 12, 2009

....................... We all drove to Cassie and Joe’s house and walked inside hit with the smell of coffee and bacon.   ... Read Chapter

Big things

Submitted: August 13, 2009

…………………. We all spent the day laughing and celebrating with Drew I walked outside and leaned over the rail on the deck taki... Read Chapter

Choice words

Submitted: August 13, 2009

................ He looked a t me and shook his head I offered him my hands and pulled him up.   “I was talking the contra... Read Chapter

Gibbs slaps for Drew

Submitted: August 13, 2009

................... I drove towards Cassie and Joe’s house before stopping and turning for the airport instead I parked in one of the l... Read Chapter

Neglecting each other

Submitted: August 14, 2009

…………………………….. By the time I got to Drew’s parents the snow had seemed to follow me and there was around 6 inches ... Read Chapter

Tears and apologies

Submitted: August 14, 2009

……………………………….. Drew put my phone down and ran back down the stairs into the chattering noise of the kitchen, ... Read Chapter

Christmas Eve

Submitted: August 15, 2009

……………………… Drew climbed out of bed and pulled on his jeans and t-shirt and pulled the comforter over me as I slept the a... Read Chapter

Gifts

Submitted: August 17, 2009

……………………… I walked down the stairs and into the kitchen.   “Feel better” Becca asked hugging me. &... Read Chapter

Two gifts and Two surprises.................

Submitted: August 17, 2009

......................... I stood up as Matt hugged B.   “Congratulations guys” I smiled hugging both of them.  ... Read Chapter