Sometimes I just want to say f@!k it

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I am not crazy

Submitted: January 15, 2012

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Submitted: January 15, 2012



Sometimes I just want to say fuck it

Tie the noose and kick the bucket

Why would I want to do that?

I can't reach this knife in my back

As i lye awake trying to sleep

The feeling gets worse and digs deep

Should I blame myself for this pain?

I try to convince myself

It was only a game

I become ashamed

I was a willing participant

I am not innocent

I am guilty of many things

Extreme hatred brings

I made changes for the better

Which brought defamation of character

They can have their opinion of me

I am only as they see me to be

I didn't throw in the towel

So look at me now

I am here for a reason

I change with the seasons

I am blessed with a sickness

I do not see it as a weakness

When I want to say fuck it today

I hold on for tomorrow and pray

God please take this feeling

Replace it with your healing

It doesn't happen instantly

When you're changing internally

Miracles do take time

But in my mind

My dying thoughts

Are eventually lost

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