I ponder the sweet thoughts of distance I could cause for I am wounded by my family,
I wonder would it be better to just move away and have no phone,No internet, No connection?
I Ponder this as thoughts flood of how I have always done all I can for them and they nothing in return.
I wonder will it hurt me possibly more than it does them? Will they even learn or would I choose to come back swiftly?
I ponder these as I get burned over and over again and again it hurts my heart and its my sister,mom and or dad!
I wonder if I truly gain love from them, I Ponder if they truly gain a thing from me, I wonder how could I leave thee.?
I Gander over to my left and see my sister's face, It mimicks me and tonts me so I veer to the right there it is my moms face too.
I Ponder in my head is this something that can leave me be? I may move further and further away but, its there and always will remain,
The love I have for them, the heart will not leave the brain... But, the damage they have done is a strain on such a one loving them is no
fun or easy but, now a chore so shall I choose to hit that button, hit the Ignore!??
I ponder,I Wonder and I take a Gander at all angles in my grasp...I think I will close my eyes and take a silent rest.
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