The Sidelines

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Poetry  |  House: Booksie Classic
I wrote this poem thinking about all the times where I feel so socially anxious. I suffer from it quite a lot. This poem may seem a little bit darker compared to my others, but the message is still good, I believe!

Submitted: January 02, 2014

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Sidelines


I am standing on the sidelines,
Where I am nearly indivisibly invisible,
Where feeling and sensation come all too slowly,
Where the bleachers are too full
To support the weight of my shoes.

The sidelines
Which returned to me memories
Of a time when there was you and I
And this line did not provoke my hesitating silence.

The sidelines
Where my doubt
Rains like no one has ever
Felt before, weighing my frame
Down like a stone statue,
My feet shackled to the earth—
And you do not know how uncomfortable my shoes are.

The sidelines
Where now I view with sombre
And susceptible eyes, she folding her hand
Into his, a shallow qualm
Stinging my eyes like saltwater,
Straining my heart like a noose.

These sidelines
Where I see her and yet somehow
I can still feel faintly,
This unconditionally unconventional warmth—
But as she is sitting in the rowboat with him,
With him as a wave of calamity,
A wave of melancholy, sheer, passing on a whim,
Diminishes craft and crew
To bubbles in an unnoticed wake—
Yet noticed only by my trembling, fading self,
My feet frozen, shivering, agonising
Beyond all pain; too feeble
To lift even a leg, a finger.

The sidelines
Where I watch everyone’s life
Before my own pass by,
Put ahead of my sensation, merely to view
As understanding, simply by standing.

Those sidelines,
Where I cut from me my own two feet
To crawl all the way forward,
Leaving behind my shoes
So no one has to sustain such a burden
Of standing and watching
From those dull and heavy sidelines.

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