Valentin

Reads: 300  | Likes: 0  | Shelves: 0  | Comments: 0

  • Facebook
  • Twitter
  • Reddit
  • Pinterest
  • Invite

More Details
Status: Finished  |  Genre: Romance  |  House: Booksie Classic
this is the story of my short time with Valentin, my second and last love. I don't care much about love, I don't understand it. So I tried to make it go away, those feelings. I tried to make him hate me. Did I succeed? Probably.

Submitted: September 04, 2013

A A A | A A A

Submitted: September 04, 2013

A A A

A A A


VALENTIN

 

When I was 13, I switched to another school because everyone bullied me. The school I changed to was even worse, I didn't even learn anything, people still hit me. And, I fell in love for the second time.

 

I can't remember when I first saw him, but then I don't remember much of anything. I always wondered what his name was, and then one day I overheard it from one of his friends. Valentin. Isn't that just the most wonderful name ever? He had glasses, and brown hair, almost to his shoulders. I never saw his face, but my friend said he was ugly. I dont care, love is not about how apperance... but still. I would have liked to know how he looked. I only heard him speak once, he was a very quiet person. he had two friends who always were talking to eachother, laughing, hitting eachother. Valentin just sat and listened.

 

 Back then, I hardly ever looked up, so I could recognize his shoes right away. White, shiny, almost football-like shoes. Clean. I really tried to avoid him, but somehow I always ended up in the same place as him. And when I did, I tried to make him go away. Get away from me, you're making my heart ache. Leave me. Go before I'll dispose of you myself. Go before I hurt you.

 

One day, I saw him, playing the guitar. He played 21 Guns, Green day, but I didn't know that then, I had never heard it before. It was so pretty, and he was so good at it, so I just stood there, leaning against the wall, watching my feet. Listening.

 

Time passed, I continued to make a fool of myself to try to scare him away. I don't think it worked. He didn’t even seem to notice. It hurt so much, whenever I did that. But it was my only option. He would never love me anyway, so it would be best if I made him hate me, so that he would go away whenever he saw me.

And then, we had a ”going outside” day, we were going to run a couple of miles, through a forest. And of course I ended up behind him, even though I tried so hard not to be close to him. That's why I waited until everyone had left. I had heart problems even back then, so even though I was fast, I got tired easily. I wasn't alone, of course, my two best friends where there. Two boys. So I could not say anything to them, could not explain why I acted that weird.

For some reason, I started to run really fast, past Valentin and his two friends, yelling to my friends ”Come on!!, We can still win this!! RUN!!!!” But they did not run. So I had to wait for them, and Valentin passed me again. And then his friend said, in a teasing voice,”Gaawwwd, come on guuuuys, ruuun!!”. I was so ashamed. But then I heard Valentin say something, for the first and only time. He said, very quiet, ” Stop it... leave her alone.” And then it started to rain like hell.

After that, he finally started to avoid me. On the last day of school, is was yet again raining, and we were going to watch the teachers play football. Outside. The whole school sat under some trees, on the wet grass, most of us without umbrellas. Valentin sat a couple of meters to my right. And I stared at him. Well, in his direction. He said something to his friends, and then they left. Just like that. They weren't even allowed to leave. After the match, I went  home to get prepared for the graduation. I had an expensive goth jacket from Shock, a really short white/black skirt and knee-high boots. It was my last day, so I thought that I'd let them know who I really was. Not that they cared anwyay. Anyway, I went back to the school. And he wasn't even on the graduation. So when we were done, I walked down the stairs with my mum, to the car. And as I closed the door, I saw him. On top of the stairs, looking my way. And the radio was turned on. 21 guns. His song. And we drove away, me watching out the window, crying. Him, walking down, alone.

 

He surely had a girlfriend anyway, everyone has. Don't think I was a fool. He didn’t like me, he was simply nice that time when he "defended" me. I continued to see him, every Monday after I've switched school, on the bus station. He was always alone. Looking like I do, hands around his body, watching into nothingness, quiet, alone. Dressed in black.

I don't think of him anymore. Sometimes I read the poems I wrote for him, watch the pictures I drew. I don't regret anything. But whenever I hear his song, I shiver, fighting to hold back the tears.

 

“When it's time to live and let die

and you can't get another try

Something inside this heart has died

You're in ruins”

-21 Guns, Green Day

 

Read more: GREEN DAY - 21 GUNS LYRICS

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 


© Copyright 2020 linxas. All rights reserved.

  • Facebook
  • Twitter
  • Reddit
  • Pinterest
  • Invite

Add Your Comments: