I’ve been awake all night and day,
Staying awake from this pain.
I look like a wreck, but I don’t care,
I’m checking myself to see if it’s there.
Ah! Here it is, that tiny ache,
Reminding me it’s there, to make no mistake.
I’m waiting for the explosion inside,
But it doesn’t come when I wonder why.
I start to forget that it’s there,
When all of a sudden, I’ve lost my air.
I can barley breathe with this blasted pain,
But I act like nothing has changed.
The smile on my face is forced and fake,
But it’s so believing everyone makes the mistake.
Oh, oh God, it’s getting worse,
This feels like an insufferable curse.
My friends don’t notice a single thing,
Why would they? They don’t know about me.
After about 5 seconds of agonizing hell,
It starts to fade, but I won’t tell.
No one would believe me anyway,
I know exactly what they’d say.
“You’re just attention seeking once again,
Don’t you feel any shame?
You have a good life, you got it fine,”
You know nothing of this life of mine!
I keep my mouth shut and don’t say a word,
At the age of 6 I quickly learnt.
I need to deal my with own problems, no one else will do,
I was such a young age, but I still knew.
I’m on my own in this world, which means I’m alone now,
Don’t ask me why, or what or how.
That pain, it hits me once again,
But I’m alone, so I turn my silent tears into rain.
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