The Lover's Farwell

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The man. My love. Is gone. Everything I have ever been dreaming of is gone. Forever. Forever doesnt last and it will never be.

Submitted: March 11, 2015

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The Lover’s Farewell

 

How to end it all? She thought while trying to find shelter. Why should I stay on this cruel earth? She asked herself while wind was blowing through her hair. She felt so free yet so concealed. Life goes on? She thought while also questioning herself. People move on so quickly, she remembered. Jake was my one and only love. He’s a bright planet in the dark morning sky of my existence. Somehow seeing him with his varied flaws buoys me with hope. I am better for knowing him. All she could think of is if she killed herself tonight the stars would still appear, the sun would still come out, the earth would still rotate, the seasons would still change; so why not?

Jake and I had a beautiful tragic love affair. I loved him more and more each passing day. I knew he loved me and that he would do anything for me and that was one of the reasons it hurt so much when he ended it. I knew even then how rare that kind of love is. Only the luckiest people get to experience that. It was a stormy night when Jake broke up with me. It was harsh to say the least. It was our three year anniversary. He bought me flowers and took me to his house for a movie. We watched “The Lucky Ones”. We were so in love. When he touched me my heart would stop. It all changed very quickly. After the movie was done he looked at me and started to cry. Jake never cried. He soon started to say how it wasn’t working out and how he couldn’t be in a relationship right now. I was shocked because everything was going so well. I cried my eyes out when all of a sudden he got angry. He said how this isn’t right and that I should just leave and never come back and that I will never find love ever again in my lifetime. I soon thought that he was telling the truth and that I should end it all for me. No one is ever going to love me. I ran out of his house and went to the top of the Golden Gate Bridge. I watched the water crash into the side of the bridge and wondered what would happen if i just jumped off. My pain would be gone. I have no home, no shelter... No one. I’ll drive myself to achieve impossible perfection and I’ll never let myself believe that someone loves me. I stood there thinking of what to do when I finally made up my mind. I stepped farther onto the ledge. I could feel the wind up against my skin. It will soon be over. What did do but ever do but love you, Jake. If I choose to stay on this earth it will just get worse for me. I will break down cry. I’ll drag a razor against my skin. I’ll scream out I want to die but no one will hear me. No one cares for me. I am just about to jump when I decide not to. I will try to stay strong I thought. When all of a sudden when I am about to get off the ledge a big gust of wind come from the west. Its too strong to bare a fall. I scream for help but no one hears me...once again. I try to stay alive but the undertoes are too strong. I go under water and never come back up.

 


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