The Fluttering Heart of an Ordinary Girl

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Gay and Lesbian  |  House: Booksie Classic

This is just me, kind of letting my feelings out. Me and my fluttering heart. :)

What can I do? What more can I do? I've tried everything. I thought, as I watched her walk away. I stared at her retreating backside, admiring the way her golden hair swished as she walked. The pink tips shown in her golden mass as it swayed from side to side. She'll never love me. I'm not even sure if she's really bi! At this age, girls get so confused sbout that stuff anyway. We'll never be more than friends. I told myself sadly, my lips slanting downward in a frown. I wanted so badly to throw my arms around her and tell her I'd never leave her, to show her just how much I cared. It would be so happy, a movie scrit ending. Sweet music would play as we embraced, two girls with stars in their eyes, love blossoming around their combined sillouttes. I shook my head, clearing the fantasies away like cobwebs. That would never happen. Love didn't tend to lean in my favor. I wished with all my heart I was straight. Things were so much easier, people were less judgmental. There were no steryotypes that straight people were all sluts, or that straight people were all emos who cut themselves. No, straight people were, "sweet lovebirds in an ecstacy of bliss". I was so sick of it. So sick of playing these games. I wished that I could just fall into her arms and be done with it. If only, if only.  I walked on to math class, seemingly doomed to an eternaty of hopeful gazes and a fluttering heart. I would live. And one day, maybe one day, I would finally be able to call her mine.


Submitted: May 16, 2012

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inspiredbylove22

Aw this brings back so many memories of school crush days. Flowed really well, good job. Keep up the good work :)

Wed, May 16th, 2012 9:39am

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Thanks for reading :)I'm glad you liked it.

Thu, May 17th, 2012 10:13am

lesbianrebel94

ahhh i know stuff like this sucks but you can get throw it. and it was good honest and pure good job

Wed, May 16th, 2012 2:41pm

LoveIsAlwaysRight

Thank you guys so much. I hope I get through it too.

Wed, May 16th, 2012 5:15pm

Bitori

Your amazing and it's the small minded people that judge I am from a 4k population town with 1 highschool and maybe 6bi/gay girls and boys. We get things dished at us constantly and it's never easy. If you like her don't leave that what if maybe she will like you back, maybe she won't be ready but her knowing is better than you hiding it. I was inlove with my brothers bestfriend for a very long time but I never told her and she died. I still wonder what it would have felt like to kiss her or hold her.
Never put off what you can do today :) you sound like a bright and beautiful girl so go for it. The worst that could happen is you guys staying friends. Or if you don't tell her, another girl will beat you and you will miss your chance, trust me you don't wanna be the girl inlove with your bestfriend. If you ever wanna talk I'm open ears ^^ being 17 and Lesbian I know being different isn't easy but it's what makes us all unique, don't wish you were straight because you are who you are and to someone in this world you are the perfect person ^^

Sincerely
~Sarah

Fri, May 18th, 2012 9:30pm

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Thank you you are so incredibly sweet :) I really needed to hear this you have no idea what it means to me. I'm just so afraid. I don't want to ruin our amazing friendship, but I also don't want to keep my feelings a secret...how should I tell her???

Sat, May 19th, 2012 1:32pm

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