Loves Wonders IV

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Diary Confessions part four.
What happens when those three words are finally said?

Submitted: December 03, 2013

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Submitted: December 03, 2013



A few days ago, I broke down and finally said it. I hate how I told him, but I just couldn't wait to see him person to tell him. I sent it through text to him. I told him that he meant everything to me and was the world to me, and I couldn't hold it back anymore. Then I told him, I love you.

Go figure however, this is when his phone decided to mess up. It restarted and I didn't get a response for hours! So needless to say, I was freaking out. Finally, a few hours later, he finally responded telling me about his phone and that he loved me to...I screamed in smiles. I was so excited. All i could say was really?? It was just amazing hearing him say those words. When we finally got together again, we did a little drinking like normally. We did so many cute little things. We did a few tickle battles, we watched some movies, and we even went through his old pictures from when he was a child. It was amazing. I couldn't have been anymore relaxed in my life. We finally were saying I love you in person and it was just all smiles. Then he said he felt like he said it too early, but he was feeling that strongly about me for a while now. I am still beyond confused about this and it has been going through my head for a while now. Next time we get together, which will be later this week, I am going to talk to him about it and hopefully get an answer this time. One thing he can't do is text about emotions because he says "it just doesn't feel right/ the same". I told him no matter what i knew it was from the heart. I asked him to try it just this once for me. He said he did and i asked  him what he did and he said that he typed the words then erased it because he couldn't find the right words. It honestly to me was cute as hell.

Along this same night, we had the worst scare any relationship could have...yup the pregnacy scare. It was a bad one to. The condom itself broke. So, needless to say, we both sobered up real quick and headed out to the store. Now, dont get me wrong, if we both were ready and prepared, then I wouldn't of worried about getting plan b. But, he definatly isn't ready, and i respect that and I don't need another child right now myself. I am still trying to get my life straight for my first one. Either way, to make things even more interesting, as we are pulling out of the store parking lot, a nice little cop decided to pull of us and profile my boyfriend. Got him to step out of the car and search him for drugs. As of this point, I am bawling my eyes out and just wanting this night to finally end. The cop walked over to my door and asked me what was wrong. I explained to him about the scare and that i was freaking out and him pulling us over was just the cherry on top. He understood and told me that he will make this as quick as possible. Luckily, a burglary took place right down the road from us, so the cop had no other choice but to make it quick. With in minutes, we were on the road again. We got food then went home and stayed there till the next morning.

With a few factors on my side, I should be ok. One thing is for sure though, I am hoping i wont have to deal with that again until we are ready. Which won't be for years down the road. Awhile ago, he told me that he would probably leave me if i ended pregnant because he wouldn't be able to deal with it. He would still be in the childs life, but he just wouldn't want ot be together. Now, yesterday i asked him again since we had the scare and feelings between us have gotten stronger. His words just made me feel amazing. He told me "No, I don't think I could just leave you in that position, it would hurt both of us more that the issue itself." I just dropped when he told me that. It means so much to me, more than i think he will realize.

This guy I am starting to feel like is the one. I can't even look at other guys anymore. He has changed me for the better and has been by my side already through so much. Everything these past few days I believe is just a test to see our strength with each other and so far, we are doing pretty damn good in my eyes. He is my everything and my forever. I love him, and maybe one day, we will want to keep each forever and admit it to each other. Till that day though, we are pretty happy with just how we are.

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