A piece of poetry that i wrote about my illness and feelings.

Days of endless struggle

More hopefully pills today

Trying to appear 'normal'

In some sort of way


it seems that the struggle

is always here with me

And i wouldn't be here now

if guilt would leave me be


i know theres been many

who've had it worse than me

I'm sorry but i just cant see

I cant see because my worst enemy


Is not my life but inside of me

Always on a roller-coaster

Not much consistency

I'm nothing if I'm not up or down

I'm nothing if just me


Very little energy

Wanting to stay in bed

Wishing to be enthusiastic

Instead of feeling like I'm made of lead


Wanting to be excited

Wanting to care for more

But when nothing makes sense

Its hard to focus anymore


Cluttered mind, Cluttered thinking

Its hard to keep in touch

With what is happening around me

And not to worry to much


I feel that everybody is better than me

And that i cant do anything right

This is how i have felt my whole dam life

It didn't just start last night


Living seems like a roll of a dice

Submitted: September 19, 2015

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