In My Heart I need you

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Romance  |  House: Booksie Classic

What my heart says.

In my heart there is hurt. There are wounds gashes and bruises. Even though you can't see it, i know they're there. I've been cheated, hurt, betrayed. But the past is the past, the future is to come. Right now is a mystery.

The world is wonderful, yet terrible too, the things i hear about read on the news.  People dying, crying, sadness and sorrow. Feeling like theres no hope for tomorrow. For days will be better. The sun does indeed shine. Smile and rejoice because were alive.

 Sometimes i feel lost. Lost in my heart, blinded by love. Trapped in a bad situation. Having love for someone who doesn't love you back. Breaks my heart with segregation. I thought he loved me did he not say it? No he did, he stated it many times. Now he's off with some girl, but yet i don't care. I've moved on a clean slate.. its bare. I need to find someone. I'm searching aimlessly in my soul, my heart, my mind. I one to call my own, who will never leave me. I need a friend someone to care. Someone to cry with, someone to hug, someone to kiss, give all my love. I'm looking for a boy, a nice genuine sweet boy. Who will care and take care of me and love me for who i am. I need to figure out who he is. Is he out there? Could it be you? How do i know? These are questions i ask on a daily basis just to myself. Will i ever find someone who will love me forever? I need him. I want to cuddle up and talk to him about everything. I want to have fun with him go to the mall, the movies, mini golfing, go on adventures, be silly with. Be me. 

One way to tell if a guy and i might be right, i can totally be myself right from the start. I can be my silly self around him and just have fun. I guess I'm looking for the out going type. Someone who isn't afraid to talk. I need someone. I'm searching for someone. I know your out there. I need you. I love you. Come home and be with me. I feel your presence in my dreams. I just want you to be there when i wakeup too, not just in my dreams. I want you in my reality. I hope i find you soon. I'm only fifteen and i feel like i need someone like that. Is it the pressure from my brother? My brother had a relationship with a girl for 5 years and i was very young when that started. I saw them be best friends, but i also saw my brother fall in love with her. Their relationship started in 7th grade and it ended right before they went to college. I still keep in contact with the girl and she's so nice to me and understands. I've also seen my sister go through a lot. She had a boyfriend sophmore year in high school. Me being a freshman i feel very pressured because she basically found her soulmate.  Her and Steve (the guy) are still together and she's 23 now. I really hope i can find the one. I have no idea how long it will take. But i need to find him. My whole life i feel is based on love. What would've happened if my brother or my sister hadn't had those relationships? Would i still be like this? I need to know how to find him. Please tell me where he is. Please. I need to find him. I don't want to be hurt anymore or anything, i had hurting in relationships. I know it will happen though. Mostly all people in relationships get into fights. But i know if that person really loved me he'd stay there with me till the end and never leave me. I'm looking for that guy. Do you know where he is?


Submitted: March 29, 2012

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