In the End (Lucy Sahara xoxoxo)

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Poetry  |  House: Booksie Classic
This is for my novel "The Gypsy at Sunrise".

Submitted: November 08, 2011

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Submitted: November 08, 2011



In the End

I told my honest friend a lie

What I did was virtuous and no one will bleed by night

Covering my finesse with emote smiles

I thought that the guilt will subside

But, it did not subside

It turned me inside out like a love drug

I craved for its amenity and numbness

It gave me barriers—I felt so out of touch.

I felt out of touch as my demons kept taunting

The darkness clouded me even in the day

My outer attire stood perfectly still

While hell raged within in me

As hell raged on, I struggled with my conscience

My dreams quickly turned into nightmares

The calmness of the Ocean soothed me to sleep

Until it swallowed me whole, relieving me from my haven of peace

Peace was gone—war came in a fiery

I became my own enemy all the same

I hid myself from the screaming shells

Covered with the bloody shame

As I felt the shame and shared it with loathing

The anger transferred from one to the other

I couldn’t take any more of this mourning!

All this—because of that lie,

That lie was not virtuous

In the end, all it did was kill me from inside out.

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