Freak of Nature

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Other  |  House: Booksie Classic
A life of an average girl that lives in a world of disappointments. Life isn't exactly full of sweet candy, it's more coated with vinegar.

Submitted: July 09, 2008

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To me life is never ending. It continues down a long lonely road of being young and free willed to looking like a corps with rotting teeth; so why not take the quick trip to death while you’re young? It’d be so much easier to die and not have to live through so many hard times, but of course that would be like giving up too fast. Life never ending has to do with my religion, but that’s entirely beside the point. Life by no means prevents those fiery arrows from creeping up behind you, and throwing disappointing darts at your back; peer pressure, temptation, drugs, pornography, evil thoughts, friends, and of course for me, my families circumstances.

Kids say that they have a horrible family all the time. Usually when they are mad at and adult figure or a sibling, but that is definitely not me. I know and understand that an average teenager would curse out there family limb from limb because of some argument, but for me I long for an argument. I thrive for one small unimportant disagreement. Deep down I’m a fun loving care free girl with a longing for adventure, but how can you go through life with a brother that is out getting drunk of depression, while a younger sister at the age of six was also recently diagnosed with leukemia?

 I wake up to a screaming sister puking up acid on the bathroom floor, or when her cell count is too high she will puke up dark red blood. She takes trips to the hospital more often than not. She has to be strapped to a cold metal stretcher while the doctors with rubber gloves stab thick needles into her hip bone to get samples of her bone marrow, and she frequently has dark blue bruises that cover her once olive skin. Her conditions are much worse than mine, but I frequently ask myself, why do I wish she were dead?

Three years previous my mother died in a car accident. It had a dreadfully large impact on our family. My dad was unemployed, my brother started drinking, and my sister was only three without a mother figure to grow up with, and you wonder where that left me? Having a mother’s full responsibilities soaked into my head and out my toes. I was left as the only one that could offend for my siblings while my dad went off to find a job and my brother was constantly depressed and drinking his way down to Haydies. At that point a few months after my mother died, I was never recognized for what I did, and to add to my stress that’s when my sister was diagnosed with leukemia. I’ve gotten used to life’s disappointments, having to deal with family troubles and all that jazz, but by far having everything happen to my family in the past year was not exactly the world’s greatest picnic, it was more like a circus crammed into a picnic basket full of red ants, definitely not a pretty picture.

Then came my high school year. My best friend ever since the 1st grade turns all flaky on me, and starts the whole “anorexic” scheme to become popular. I don’t mind what she does with her life, but then she starts saying things like, “Oh come on Melinda, you really need to lose some weight.” ME LOSE SOME, UGH… WHAT?! I’ve been called porky by a kid in the 5th grade, but besides that my weight never bothered me. Her telling me to lose weight was just another pound of stress added to my homework pile. Then I decide I won’t stand to put up some girls crap, so I turn to the people that will accept me, the geeks. Ok, well they’re not all that bad— the braces, acne, but they don’t have the glasses? Oh who am I kidding, my life sucks.

 
 


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