Love's Obsession

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Young Adult  |  House: Booksie Classic
A story about undying love

Submitted: January 03, 2009

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Submitted: January 03, 2009

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The Reason

The reason why he loved her was unclear to her even more then her own reason for loving him but she loved him none the less, was it destiny, fate or was it just how it was ment to be. In his point of view how could he not love her she was everything he had been searching for everything he dreamed about somehow to him she was a dream come true and all he knew was that he would never love another for as long as he lived. At first he felt that she did not beleive him when he would say forever to her, but in his heart he know it would always be her and had always been right from the very beginingThree years to be exact.

He was too young to know what the feelings he had for her were all those years ago but now he did and he finaly realished what he had to do to have her by finishing what he had started, what he wanted to do when she looked so beautiful and sweet. Just looking at her on that day three years before made him melt inside, if only he had succeeded with that kiss, he knew that they would have been together still today but after the one he loved said no he wrote it off as a crush that would go away. As athree yearspassed he never thought of her in that way but when his feelings came back he realised that he wanted her but the question remained was it lust and would It end if he had sex with her was it a craving to have her in everyway or was he like a lot of other guys that just wanted sex, so fear of the unknowen made him keep it to himself no one would ever know these thoughts ever existed not his friends and not her. Months went by like they always did he could not control his thoughts everytime he thought of her he thought of having her, he thought of sexual things he would like to do to her, for some reason he wrote one of those thoughts in his phone next to her number not realising it would be found soon.

The kiss

It would be almost six months when he got a new phone and the new owner of his phone would become her, by now he had forgot putting a thought in the phones memory and before long after he was in town and on his way to her place he found out that she had found something on the phone and straight away remembered, making his heart slow down. He had fear that she would not want anything to do with him after writing what hewanted to doin the phone, he was scared of a certain somone else finding out, it did not happen and and before long he found himself thinking about her more and more and it moved from just thoughts to dreams of kissing her and making love to her, his mind was in overdrive he knew he had to do somethingbefore it all came out to everyone, a secret that could not come out. He wanted to see her everyday and the days he did see her were painful to him he was too nice and too scared to try and make a move, then he could finally not stop himself anymore and it happened the first kiss his first ever real kiss he was surprised when she kissed him back, his heart almost stopped and he could feel his breath being taken away the kiss was not a long kiss but to him it felt like itlasted hours.

He had not planed to kiss her, A second before he was going to tell her that he could not hold back any longer on his ever growing feelings toward her but instead the kiss that still to this day it stays in his mind and everytime he thinks about it he remembers the taste of her lips and tongue as for what she was wearing that was all a blur but the kiss was sure to stay with him forever. Day's after 'the kiss' he felt their relationship as friends was as strong as it could get but all the while he wanted to spend every second with her, still not sure if it was love or lust for he had never felt love for anyone before it confused him but still all he could think about was her, the dreams started to get really intense and more real.

The Day Of Extreme Closeness

November was the month thatwould change his life forever, by now he had kissed her in a passionate way a few times and then one day they were making out on the lounge which then lead to the bedroom, he finally got to see and feel what a woman's breasts were really like, he was nervous the whole time always thinking that he could not satisfy her or last long enough. He was turned on more then he had ever been in his life, she climbed on top of him and when he first wentinside of her it felt amazing, comfortable and strange all at the same time, she started moving while he was inside ofher, by now his heart was beating the fastest he had ever feltit beat, the whole time she asked him if he was okbut truth be told he was more then ok his feelings were becoming clear and he knew that what he felt for her was more then a crush, in his head he lost track of time he had almost came a few times but he held it in. each time he held it in it made him want to let go more and more.

He let himself go after holding it in four times, he could barely hear her letting go let alone himself, by the end of it he felt like he could not move he wanted to stay inside her longer because he felt like nobody could touch themwhile they were one. After they were both dressed his heart still had not slowed, before long he fell asleep in her arms listening to her heartbeat then he knew it was not an end like he had thought aftter making loveto her but instead it was like a beginning and he wanted her even more, he was sure he was falling in love with her. Eventually he met another girl on a onlie chat room and straight away they got on really well which began to confuse him, hedid not think about her in that way at all, all it was was that they had a lot in common but a bit too much she was like the femail version of him ok yes he thought she cute but nothing compared to the one he was falling for more and more everyday, in time he was starting to get scared of her boyfriend finding out that he was in love with her and the fact that she had a kid toher boyfriend.

The Fear Of Losing Eveything

He was scaredof everything going wrong so he thought that the only way to stop it was to let her go,it was not him giving up it was him trying to figure if he would ever really be with her completely, he hated being the other man in any womans life so he told her that he couldn't be with her, saying that hurt him really badand what hurt him more was that he had hurt her as well. Not to mention it came across like he had ended it so he could be with the girl he had metin the online chat room then finalyin person but it hadnothing to do with that he found it hard to explain that it was not the case, later on he thought the only way he would get over his first love would be to move on and find someone new but it did not work he realised that he should not have ended it and he could just not stop thinking about her, he thought that it was too late to fix his mistake, but when he asked if they could start over she said yes even though he still thinks about how he almost lost the love of his life.

The Heart He Gave To Her To Keep Forever

What more could a man need, want, and crave from a woman as beautiful aas her, there were times she would not agree with him or think he was crazy to see beauty in her when she had convinced herself that she did not have any beauty. What she needed to realise was true beauty is only seen by a man that has let a woman have his heart and the heart of this man was all hers till the end of time and beyond and he kept telling himself that his love will never die and his way of showing that was to shower her with gifts and write her letters, not just for her but for himself he just wanted to show her that that is just who he is.

Not Love But Love's Obsession

Everyday his love grew stronger and stronger and it never stopped, everyday that passed even when he was not able to see he his love just kept growing and getting stronger he was in love and he was in deeper then he ever thought possible, he had no idea that he could love one person so much but he was glad it was her. He loved her so much that he began to write in pen (I Heart Her, I love her, and I love her 4ever) on his skin and whenever it begain to fade he would write it again but unlike ink his love for her would never fade away it would be branded on his heart and stay there even after he dies. Love was just not a big enough word to describe how he felt about her, Love was just the start of his obsession with her heart and he waited for the day hewould find out that love is not love without obsession you need both to understand what love really is because love is on the path to true love and without the love being true then you will never understand Love's Obsession...


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