My Mind Day 1

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Submitted: November 03, 2009

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Submitted: November 03, 2009



It is raining here on the 3rd day of November 2009. I sit and think about how hard it will be for me to document my thoughts over time. For I constantly start a project but never finish due to my lack of ambition or circumstance. Why the hell do I even bother, I know for a fact that this little project won't be completed. But anyway here goes Nothing and I say that with a capital N because that is what this is---NOTHING!!

Who the Hell cares, I say to myself over and over,, because I know I don't. People don't seem to understand the illness that I suffer. My mind plays games with me that are overly complex and rarely understood. I shout within myself in a rage with no apparent reasoning behind it. One minute I'm happy the next I'm sad and so on and so forth. So come join me while I try to figure myself out if you are mentally capable of such a journey.

Why? Why am I this way? What the F@#% have I done to deserve this mental anguish? Well I have done all kinds of things that are deserving of such torture. I deserve nothing less than the worst this world can throw at me. But I'm now so hardened that even if I lost it all it wouldn't mean a thing.

Everything is b$% Sh$%, why do people choose to live. I mean what is it that causes us to awake and keep living? It has to be something deeper within us because I don't want to die nor do I want to live. This is all I'm going to write for now because my mind has now prevented me from any more thoughts. But I would appreciate it if you would follow me on the journey that my mind has given me to do. It may become complicated and often it won't make sense, but nonetheless this is the journey that I need to take and I want you to say what it is you want to say.

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