When The Stars Shone Brightly

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Romance  |  House: Booksie Classic
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About how loving is never having to say goodbye, no matter the truth.

Submitted: July 30, 2013

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Submitted: July 30, 2013

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I ran on to the sand, and looked around. The crowd was huge and the summer atmosphere was so evident. I pushed through the coming crowd, and looked frantically around to find him. I was angry, sad, happy, everything mixed into one.

After everything we had been through, he had nothing to say to me. 

And that's when I saw him. I struggled to focus, my eyes blurry from the salty tears that have been pouring out. The tall lean boy that I loved, with eyes of emerald and hair the colour of chestnuts.

‘Sebastian Grosvenor!’ I shouted out to him, and his head turned my way.

This was the place where we first met, that winter evening.

A smile appeared on his lips, ‘I thought I’ll see you here today.’

He walked over to me; he's shirt unbuttoned, with his chest showing.  He seemed unfazed by the summer wind blowing against and for that brief moment, everything seemed like fate to me. He ruffled his brown hair, which stayed still despite his hands messing it up, ‘what brings you here today?’

I scoffed at him, ‘what do you mean “what brings you here?” how can you be so carefree, how can you –,’ I noticed my eyes were filled with tears, I hated being vulnerable in front of him, ‘you – you douchebag.’

He grabbed me into a hug and tightened his arms around me, his head resting on my shoulder and his breath sending shivers down my spine, ‘why Sebastian, why?’ I whispered, and snuggled into his chest.

He shut me up by pulling me in closer into his embrace, and I felt him smile, ‘don’t talk.’ I held my breath as he pulled away, and then I blurted out everything.  He grabbed my shoulders, ‘it’s not their fault, it’s definitely not your fault, it’s mine, and I want to leave’

I shook my head, ‘it’s my fault, when I told you –‘

His lips fell on to mine, and the tears fell, on to my cheeks and on to the grass, his lips felt so soft, and his hands moved to my neck and pulled my chin up to his, his lips moving with mine, like a waltz, slow and a dance that seemed to go on forever, but like all dances, they all came to an end.

He let me go, and le me recollect what I had tried to say countless times, ‘any questions?’

I slammed my hands on to his chest, ‘right now I’m questioning everything–‘, and I wrapped my arms around his waist, and tightened my grip around him, ‘please don’t go, I don’t want to lose anyone else.’

He wrapped his arms around my body, and ruffled my hair with his hands, as I let go, he grabbed my hands and held them. his warm palm comforted my soul, ‘maybe it was never love; maybe we were looking for something that belonged in the past, not the present. This year made me realise that I was living in the past, and the only way I can live in the present is leave. I came back for something that was already gone.’

He stopped before he said something that cut me like a knife, deep and made my heart bled, 'You fell in love with that by the side of road two years ago. You and I both know that boy isn't here anymore, and that a part of him that day.' 

‘When will you come back?’ I whispered, after I listened to him say everything. I knew the answer, but I needed to hear it from his mouth, his words, then I would believe everything.

‘I’m not coming back.’

Leave. I knew he would never call, never write. He would cut off all contact with us, and of course me, he would leave and I think that for him, meant finally escaping the past and ultimately freedom, ‘then tell me what was we had was real.’ I whispered, and looked him straight in the eyes. They were still as unreadable as the day I first met him, but now they had a tiniest hint of life in them. It was something  that I hadn't noticed until now. 

He smiled and wiped the tear streaming down my face, ‘as real as it gets, don’t question that ever, no matter what.’

‘Will you be free?’ I began, but then I realised that I, too lived in the past, unable to move on, and I was still that little girl that yearned for love, ‘no, will we be free?’ This year had been filled with questions, and well, things that happened four years ago still haunted us.

‘You can let go of the past now, and so can I, it can’t hurt us anymore, thank you, we can finally put a full stop to mark the end of a beautiful story.’

‘I never got to say I love you,’ I cried, and he laughed. His laugh seemed so distant. It seemed real, yet fake. It felt as though it was going to be the last time I would ever, hear his voice and laugh.

He pressed a finger on my lips, preventing me from continuing, as though he already knew the question, ‘well, “I love you” are very strong words, are you really sure you want to give it away so easily?’

He pulled me closer and at that moment, the fireworks shot into the air, and he smiled. A smile that I had fell for, and it was then I knew that he was the one. He was the one that held my hand when I needed someone to love me, the one who would smile at my stupidness and keep his cool when I was complicated. Most importantly, he was the one who stayed with me the whole time.

‘You know what Adeline?’ He said, after a long silence, and he pointed into the sky, ‘when you miss me, just look up at the sky, it'll be as though you're seeing me.'

‘It won’t be the same,’ I said slowly, as my voice crack. It was too hard, I thought as I fought back tears. This couldn't be happening to me

To us.

‘Well, the sky has many expressions you see? When the sky’s clear, I’ll be happy, when it’s raining, it means I’m crying.’

I laughed and sniffed, ‘and when there’s sunset, it means you’re embarrassed, and at night, it’ll be like you’re giving me the stars.’ It just seemed so perfect, this ending to our story. It was almost like a movie, when the ending is sad, yet so beautiful, as though another ending would be unnecessary.

‘Exactly,’ He whispered softly, our foreheads met, and everything was done, ‘ I want to be the sky, so I can know where you are. If someone was hurting you, I can fly over and bash him up. I could protect you.’

There were no more words after that, no more tears, just two people who are in love. The fireworks dimmed into the night sky, and the world was silent. During what seemed like a lifetime of silence, everything just came back to me. The day we met, the night we kissed in the stars and the time we planned our future.

I heard a car beep and I saw his head turn around, as though it was like the light that was calling for him, he then turned back to me and kissed my lips lightly one more time, I had one more question for him.

‘Are you sure? Can you just walk out like this?’ I held his hand tighter than ever, ‘please, don’t leave me. Please, you’re one of the only people I’ve ever loved.’

‘I’ll be alright without you now, I no longer have to worry about you,  because I know you’ll be alright without me now,’ he smiled and planted a kiss on my forehead. ‘You’re not that little girl anymore.’ 

His hand slipped out of my mine, the warmth of his palm was already escaping from mine.

 ‘Goodbye, Addie.’

I shook my head in denial as he messed up my hair once last time, and started to retreat to the car, ‘I’m not saying it back, ever.’ My voice seemed strong in comparsion to what I felt inside. Perhaps deep down we both knew that it would come to this, that we could never be together. 

He laughed.He laughed as though it was a normal day, where we sat in the sun, but as he kept retreating back to car, I knew it was really goodbye. It was like the scene in the movies when the boy leaves the girl crying, ‘then say you love me, say you’ll never forget me, or even that you’ll think about me every night because you sleep –‘

‘I'll miss you.’

He winked and turned his back on me, and I saw a tear run down his flawless face as he looked back and closed the door, it was then that reality finally set in. I ran forward as I screamed, ‘Sebastian!’

I waited for him to turn around come back to me, but he didn’t. The car lights became blurry through my tears, they dimmed and finally disappeared into the distance and I fell to my knees.

After a while, I got up and walked home, and at some time, the tears stopped flowing. I think this is what he wanted, for me to be strong. It wasn’t as devastating as I thought it would be, it wasn’t as though the world had slipped through my hands. It was more like a feeling of being in a dream, like I would wake up and everything would suddenly be alright.

But he wasn’t coming back, he was gone.

 I don’t say goodbye, and I would never say goodbye, just like the stars never dim.


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