I sit alone at night trying to hide my pain
With bottle, needle, or razor the same.
Darkened eyes in a blood shot shame
I became the demon behind the pane.
I look in the mirror and do not see the me I use to be.
My smile is faded, my tears are dry
I pray for one last drink for awhile
The bottle falls, the needle breaks
The lungs asphyxiate as I shake
My prayer answered it is done
No pain, no pleasure all is done
You laughed at me and pried my shame
I have left now in this dying game.
A game of life with no spins left
I broke your heart with all the rest
Do you still laugh as you see me now?
Six feet under your dreams are plowed
I lay at rest in a lil’ pine box
And watch you weep what you could not stop
You saw the signs and heard my cries
But shrugged them off and called them lies
My jokes, my dreams, my romance too
All ended in impending doom
I think it will be alright
Until I see my angel cry
The tears run black her heart is gone
Her life, her dreams and soul are washed away in this onslaught
Her heart slows there’s nothing left she falls into the dying pit.
Upon the box she does lie
Staring at me with gorgeous eyes
I scream so loud I do awake
Only to find it was a dream
A dream of truth of lies the same
I cried for help it never came
I look around to find a light
Ignite I say to my own fright
A dream it was not I’m in my doom
To feel the pain of the ones with love
It stabs at me and rips at me
My eyes are gone again
I scream a loud praying for an end
My heart is torn my soul is gone
Alone I walk for now on
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i can relate to this so much! amazing! never stop writing cause if you do it would be a shame.
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Thank you so much for your support as I tell everyone who has walked a bad path that it can't rain forever
this poem relates to my LIFE ...your a gifted writer!
this is really good work, very descriptive, it speaks to the heart and stirs strong emotions. i really enjoyed it, well done xNikkix
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