What if Once

Once there was a girl who sat in the corner of a crowded room, feeling lonelier than ever, wondering how many people notice her as she notices other people.

Once there was a girl who read about love and felt pain and decided happiness was just make believe.

Though, she kept holding on to something that wasn’t real, and she knew so.

Once there was a girl who sat in the corner of an empty room, feeling more forlorn than ever, wondering how many people live a life believing in a love determined to destroy.

She walked down hallways as nothing but a shadow tracing footprints of explorers trapped in corridors.

She ran her fingers through her hair, staring into the reflection of her eyes in her bedroom mirror, wondering what the point was in a world that had no feelings but hatred and spite.

Once there was a day that surfaced into this girl’s life that provoked her to stumble into breathlessness.

She felt herself falling

Falling

Falling

Into an endless pit of fear.

This fear was of loss.

This fear was of heartbreak.

This fear was caused by a boy,

A boy who didn’t know if love was real.

She wondered what the point was, in letting someone take her heart if he were just to break it.

She stuck around though, because what an adventure it would be to love a boy with your whole heart,

And be loved with all of his.

As she felt her body sinking deeper, the love growing stronger, she tried to stop.

What if.

What if he were silent.

What if he never loved her with such an abundance of longing as she held for him.

What if there were lies within every word he spoke.

What if.

What if there were love in his heart.

What if there were love in the world.

What if she was part of his fate,

And he was all of hers.

Once there was a girl who free fell from darkness into the deep sea of a boy’s love.