What's Happening?

Reads: 281  | Likes: 0  | Shelves: 0  | Comments: 0

  • Facebook
  • Twitter
  • Reddit
  • Pinterest
  • Invite

Status: Finished  |  Genre: Other  |  House: Booksie Classic

This is a poem that I wrote while I was going through a rough time. Please bare with me on this. This was my first poem ever. Some called me Emo or freak for this, others cried. But, this was what I had felt at the time. So,what's your reaction?

I don't know who I am anymore,

all this pain is not something I adore.

As I walk down this road with my arms open wide,

I swallow my pride to start my new life.

I want to feel something other than pain,

all these emotions take over my brain.

These things that i feel, 

they all are real.

I just want to feel good inside,

save me from my suicide.

I think about what people would do without me,

I think about how they would feel, what do I see?

I see faces of sadness and pain,

what remains within them will never be the same.

I'mnot saying that I mean alot to them,

just when I picture me dying I can see all the pain within.

All those people filled with hatred and sorrow, 

all those hearts once filled are now hollow.

Maybe when I cut, I feel better,

Maybe I don't I mean I am writing this letter.

To all those people who once told me to stop,

I know, I'm trying, it's hard,

doing it wasted so many hours on the clock.

"It's okay to cry." I was once told,

I have been told that since I was four to twelve years old.

I know this, I'm not dumb,

I just don't want to cry, I want to feel numb.

I feel so many things at the time that i do it,

so many problems, so many emotions, I just don't want to go through it.

I have promised myself that i wouldn't do it again,

"Once you break a promise to yourself, you're never the same." said my brother, said my friend.

Nobody will ever understand the pain I am in,

they're not me, they're not inside my skin.

But I know that they're trying,

trying to save me from dying.

So here, I promise myself to stop forever,

So me, my friends, family, and my enimies will forever be together.

 


Submitted: April 02, 2012

© Copyright 2022 Megan Blayer. All rights reserved.

  • Facebook
  • Twitter
  • Reddit
  • Pinterest
  • Invite

Add Your Comments:


Facebook Comments

Other Content by Megan Blayer