Blind (10/20/2015)

I’ve tried to tell you

But you won’t hear

I’ve been screaming

In silent fear

My wrists are speaking

Unspoken words

My heart is screaming

Am I cursed?

I love you so

Can’t you see?

When you hurt yourself

You’re hurting me

Our hearts, my love

Are intertwined

Yours is dying

And so is mine

I’ve tried to tell you

To let you know

That you think I’m okay

But it isn’t so

I’m bleeding, love

Dying, crying

My guardian angels

They’ve stopped trying

I’m slipping away

But you won’t see

That by hurting yourself

You’re killing me

I smile, I laugh

But I’ve told you before

That no matter the mask

I’m always at war

Always fighting

The demons in my head

But I’ve come to realize

I’m already dead

I’ve been fighting so long

To stay alive

Been trying so hard

Just to survive

But in seventeen years

My heart never beat

Not once, not a whisper

No hope for me