The first man I ever loved
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Poem by: MichaelS76
THE FIRST MAN I EVER LOVED
by Michael Dale Sipes Jr.
There once was a young man who I met by chance.
We became a good friend and knew each other very well,
So well he knew what I was thinking just by a glance.
Over time we became more alike, Brothers we would say.
Slowly over time, he would be with me each and every day.
But as chance would have it Eric was more than just a Brother,
he was someone I confided in and loved like no other.
One day after school we met as usual and went to his room,
watched TV waiting for his Mom who would be home soon.
To my surprise, he touched me in a peculiar way,
I wasn’t afraid and it affirmed the desire in my heart that day.
For I had secretly fallen in love with him long before,
A fire ignited inside of me as he too wanted more.
It was his Mother who we both feared who would end our love,
He was afraid of her knowing the truth and what would come.
Years went by and no one knew and our love for each grew.
Then reality set in and Eric grew afraid, afraid of who knew.
He tried to deny the love he had for me the best anyone can.
He joined the Army to prove that he was a man
just as I had done years before having the exact same plan.
But I was fooling no one including myself those days
for everyone that I knew already knew II was gay.
Eric grew more distant and we stopped talking altogether
In his mind, he was ridding me and his secret even better.
I have not spoken to him now for a decade or more
But I will never forget the love we had behind closed doors.
Eric will forever be my first true love and now that is done
but he is the one that for years made life so much fun
Each night I dream of the love we once had
And every day I awake to reality and feel rather sad.
But all is not lost for I have hopes that one day
Eric and I will be friends again, so each day I pray.
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awe, really kinda sad, but also meaningful, awesome : )
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Thank you for your kind words. I wrote that poem and the other The young boy who was like no other, from the heart. I did not have to think of the words, they just flowed out, so I guess that is the best kind of poem you can write. Thank you again and I am happy you enjoyed it. I hope you enjoy some of the other works I have submitted. Happy writing to you.
Michael Dale Sipes, Jr.
A very moving poem. Well done
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Sorry so late getting you a response, but I have been so busy around the farm. Thank you for your comment, it means a lot to me.
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