I Tried to Heal You

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Gay and Lesbian  |  House: Booksie Classic

The only girl I ever loved or will ever love.... i die inside with her and without her

 I Tried to Heal You

Eyes deeper than the ocean blue

Laugh as innocent as a child

I loved her more than I ever knew

But I just can't let myself go wild

 

I can't trust her replies

Never knowing if I'll see her again

My heart stop not one but two times

I'm dangering myself just being her friend

 

How can someone be in so much pain?

Why does she have to live this way?

She won't see the sun but only the rain

Even my own eyes start to fade

Always on the edge of suicide

If she kills herself then I'll die

What should I do?

 

A giggle slips into my memory

A time when everything was fine

I can't hide the fear in me

Was she really ever mine?

 

Kisses and hugs so tight

Now we're both on our own

Neither of us have the strength to fight

Both, by the world, chewed to the bone

 

How can someone be in so much pain?

Why does she have to live this way

She won't see the sun but only the rain

Even my own eyes start to fade

Always on the edge of suicide

If she kills herself then I'll die

What am I going to do?

 

I hope to God she'll understand

I can't even fix myself

I don't want her to feel abandoned

I can only worry about my own health

 

Don't cry tonight

Don't pull out the blade that "ends" your pain

I promise it'll be alright

You don't have to feel any shame

I have the scars that match

I have the scars that say your name

But right now your fears I can't seem to catch

I hope you can see this from my veiw

I just want you to know one thing

I tried to heal you


Submitted: March 11, 2013

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MidnightAddict

Well I can honestly say that this is one of the best poems I've ever read. It's really beautiful how your words flow.

Mon, March 11th, 2013 5:37pm

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thank you so much! that means a lot!

Mon, March 11th, 2013 1:18pm

Angel Flash

You gave me the strength to fight. Never again will scare you. Beginning today I WILL be alright in everything I do. I read a passage in a book that made me realize how silly and selfish I'm being and therefore I will fight. Even if it hurts I will fight through these tears. I will fight in your name even if youre not allowed to date me again. Youre in my heart. Dont cry. Dont put my name onto your arms. Smile. You fixed me:)

Thu, April 4th, 2013 7:18pm

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I tried to anyway. Just keep fighting.

Thu, April 4th, 2013 6:34pm

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