Never again, not anymore.

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Memoir  |  House: Booksie Classic
Two paths completely changed...
The story of how my love has faded, for I and he himself have lost the person I fell in love with two years ago. It's been a hard battle. I know the old him is down hidden somewhere and I miss him greatly.
This is one of the hardest things I have had to write, knowing he will see how I feel about the new him.
--- Either way, promises are promises. Always and Forever.

Submitted: December 05, 2009

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Submitted: December 05, 2009



Wonder what you'll take from me today, sanity and or just my breath away?

It was an accident, really. I came upon a picture of you. It used to burn inside, to see you.
Not this time. Oh, no. This time I didn't see anything. I saw a person, yes.
But not you. I didn't know that person.

Impossible for me to tell. We're always walking on eggshells.

This person was someone I didn't recognize.
Physically and emotionally. You've changed. I've changed.
So changed your face it's hard to tell.
Even the blue eyes I've loved upon once before, are not full of admiration.

I wish that we could go back to how we were before, but I don't think that I love you anymore.

The person I loved isn't there or here. He doesn't exist.
He changed with the passing tides and is no long able to be found.
Forever lost. And that's okay, you know.
Love grew out weeks ago.

Wonder why it is that you don't see, what you've changed since we've first met and how much that it's killing me.

I don't know this new person I barely talk to and never see.
He's not the same person who promised me something grand.
He's not the same. I don't know him.

I know that I will always miss the butterflys of our first kiss and how you used to smile so easily.

And this new person in the mirror?
She's not new, but old. A real old friend.
She's back after being stolen with the highest crime.
Laughing on friend's bed as  the past never happened.

It's too hard to keep pretending, it's too hard to ignore.

And it goes with this, two entirely different paths have been created.
I know the reflection in the mirror. And it's so clear.
And the mirage of the person you used to be has lingered none.
It's gone, replaced with a vision so unclear.

I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I never thought that it would come to this.

This heart has healed its greatest wounds. It's over.
The towel was thrown and the victor is running.
When shall the haunting image change.
I can't love someone that doesn't exist anymore.

I know we'll never get back to how we were before, cause I know that I don't love you anymore.

Your long hair, new aged face.
New friends of death glares and misunderstandings.
To my beautified self and a love even you can't endure.
I'm certain... that my path is right.

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