Hard Look In The Mirror

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Editorial and Opinion  |  House: Booksie Classic
Self doubt, self-diagnosis, after the fact

Submitted: November 25, 2018

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It's damn hard to admit to yourself that you haven't always lived up to the view you have of yourself as a mature person who always lives up to his self-set standards. I look back at a few moments in my life that I'd like to do over, acting much more maturely than the sniveling cowardly way I, in actuality, did.  I also wish there were a way to apologize to some people for my actions, but there's not. Most are long out of my life.
 
There's a few moments I think about and can't believe I acted the way I did. They say that as long as those moments taught you something, 
that you learned how NOT to behave in similar moments in the future, that's the key. It's true, I would hope I would have handled it much differently now, but when I think of all the YEARS that have gone by. All the people who got a false sense of who I was simply because I panicked, lost my head and tried to lie, and thought I was much more mature than I obviously was at the time. It's a bitter lesson to learn, indeed, and doesn't do me much good now. Still, all roads, detours, ruts, forty foot deep potholes, have led me here, so I guess I can't complain. But somewhere, there's a guy who thinks I'm a lying sack who folded up his man-bits and ran cowering for the hills. I have NO idea what the hell that means, but you get the gist!


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