Water Of Death

I look down ..

at that big spot of water under me

I see the reflection of myself

looking at me with anger and hate

so much anger ..

made my heart beat so fast

fear .. went through my heart like a bullet

smashed that solid heart into little pieces

feelings are agitated inside of me

my brain is so confused

my face is lost ..

doesn't know what is the right reaction to make

smile .. cry .. frown .. laugh

tears are snatched out of my eyes

leaving them without a goodbye

all the way through my face till they reach my chin

racing against each others ..

a tear drops into the water

my reflection fades .. replaced by an image of my past

a mistake I've made ..

another tear with another image ..

a wrong decision I've taken ..

tears followed by tears

showing me how miserable my life was ..

water is raising ..

surrounding me

so heavy water .. holding me so hard

so hard that I can't move

dark water filled with sorrow

mixed with the tears of my life

putting that huge pressure on my body

breaking every bone in him

that terrible sound of smashing filling my ears

but there is no pain I can feel

I'm chocking with my own breath

a prisoner of my own sins

eyes full of frozen tears

watching my soul give up

looking up watching it fly to the sky

leaving that dead broken miserable body

to rot ..

in the water of death .