Trying To Understand

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Poetry  |  House: Booksie Classic

How can I explain this? Hmm, well, I am trying to understand the true relationship between me and my ex whom I still love with all my heart.

I try to understand,
Is there something still between us?
There is a connection,
I still know it exists.
I can tell by the way you talk to me.
How you accidently say you love me,
Then get red in the face because we are not together.

I know how it feels,
You know I still love you.
I reply to you even when you feel a bit akward.
There are many things I think you do not know,
One of those are that I am waiting for another chance with you,
That I love you with all my heart,
And that I never wanted to let you go.

You said I should be vein,
And said that I should of never let you leave.
I never see things for myself.
All I know is that I want you happy,
Even if that means making me sad.
I only want you to live,
Better then I have my whole life.
That is what makes me happy.

I am trying to understand this,
Why my feelings never changed for you.
I am trying to understand us,
And why we still say we love eachother,
Even when we are not together.

Why is this so difficult?
Am I to blame for the whole relationship ending?
Was it because I am too far away?
I wish I could know why.
I am trying to understand what I did wrong.
And how I can fix it.

I want to understand all this confusing text,
Why I love you,
But at the same time...
Feel akward telling you the truth.
I want to understand my feelings,
And why those betraying tears fall.
All I want to do is understand everything that happened.

I still love you,
No matter what happens,
You know I am waiting for you.
I do not care if you say I should not.
You are still my life.
Something I cannot get over.
Pathetic,
Stupid,
Obsessive.
What ever you want to call it.
All this is true.

I just want to understand why,
What made you do this to us?
Was it another girl?
Was it just me and my personality?
I just want to understand all this text I just wrote,
And why I wrote it.
Help me understand,
Simple and plain,
Just make me understand...


Submitted: February 11, 2007

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orynnfireheart

Love...A simple little four letter word that is probably the most controversial word no matter what language you speak. Love is the driving force behind almost all things. Love causes us to do both great and stupid things. No matter how hard we try and no matter how smart we become as a race of sentient beings, I truly believe that love will never be fully understood. It is probably the greatest mystery in our short and desperate lives. Great poem and keep up the good work.

Sun, February 11th, 2007 12:18pm

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~OrynnFireHeart
Love is sometimes very over rated. Love for me only means pain. Something we will never understand is love. And yes, it is a great mystery. Thank you for the comment.
~MurderousSweetTart

Sun, February 11th, 2007 1:10pm

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