Prisoner of My Mind

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Young Adult  |  House: Booksie Classic

Trapped inside myself.

Sick and tired of trying,

Done with all this fake smiling.

I can't predend anymore.

I can't live this way forevermore.

I've already lost it all.

So it won't make a difference if I fall.

Countless times I've tried,

But once again I have lied.

I've been knocked down for the last time.

I hear the bells in my head chime.

Telling me that's it's all over now.

Redemption is something they will not allow.

I'm confused about who I am inside.

The person I used to be has died.

I used to be so strong,

Something I thought I would be all along.

But as time passes I've realized,

That no one ever heard my silent cries.

I'm giving up the fight,

Tired of trying desperatly to find the light.

I've been beaten so as to learn my lesson.

Making me surrender to this depression.

I've been punished so many times before,

That I've lost sight of all I adore.

My will-power has been crushed.

My heart feels as thought it will bust,

From all the agony and pain,

Of knowing that I'm too scared to get back up and fight again.

Please don't hurt me,

I'll try to be what you wanted me to be.

I'll never stray again.

Never again will I try to find a friend.

I tried to hide who I really was,

From everyone I met because,

I didn't want to burden them with my pain.

I knew from that there'd be nothing to gain.

I soon began to trust,

Slowly chipping off the layers of rust,

And polishing my tarnished heart,

Only to have it once again be torn apart.

For every time I reveal who I really am,

They run away--they don't understand. 

So in the end I guess I will be what I will be.

No loyal friend was ever there for me.

They all turned their backs as soon as I revealed,

The true part of me I'd always kept consealed.

I'm a prisoner inside my own mind.

I'm the only one of my kind.

I'm afraid of the light,

Because it's too bright.

It's blinding me,

Instead of helping me see.

Will I ever find someone who will stay by my side,

And not disappear with the rising tide?

I'm no more than a prisoner waiting for release,

And for all this pain to cease.


Submitted: July 26, 2008

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Crazyguy

I love it Carly, great poem! Another one of your many fantastics.

Sat, July 26th, 2008 6:13am

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Thanks, Matt. Glad you liked it. :)

Sat, July 26th, 2008 8:23am

nuttyz

loved it! A wonderful poem again by you. :-)
count me as a true friend...^_^

take care..and there will be a day when everything goes right and never turning into a wrong ever...in everyone's life. It's yet to come...so live for it!

nuttyz~

Sat, July 26th, 2008 6:34am

Author
Reply

Wow, thanks. I will. Glad that you liked it. =D

Sat, July 26th, 2008 8:24am

Jessica George

WOW! I truly loved this poem. Not only can I relate, but the emotion was strong and raw, and the meaning was completely true. It also had a great flow to it. great job!


.:XxJessxX:.

Fri, June 26th, 2009 6:41pm

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