It’s calling my name, no it hisses my name it’s taunting me oh it’s so beautiful I can’t help but drool for it. But I can’t have it I will NOT have it no in me I won’t cave I need to be strong it’s just food I don’t really need it that much I’ll pretend to eat it, pretend to chew, and fake swallow and MMMM how yummy it will be.
“Madison, eat your dinner it’s getting cold.” I poked the juicy steak oozy goodness spilled from it my stomach rumbled.
“I’m not really that hungry.” I set my fork down, and took a sip from my water it made the hunger worse so I set my glass down.
“Honey you look pale, you need to eat look at you you’re all skin and bones.” My mom took a spoon full of bright yellow corn my mouth watered how I wish I could eat and be okay with it and not feel guilty and have to punish myself.
“No, I’m not mom look at me I’m huge.” I threw the plate to the floor, yellow corn flew everywhere the steak slid arcos the white linoleum floor I ran up the stairs two at a time I flung open my door and slammed shut, my head felt fuzzy the growling in my belly grew louder. I sat on my bed and took a small box from the white dresser next to my bed I took out a small package of chocolates I ripped the plastic apart and shoved the sugary goodness down my throat.
“Oh no, what have I done I caved in, time for punishment.” I stared at the box in my hands and frowned I threw box, all the small packages of chocolates spilled on light pink floor I stepped into my bathroom. I shoved my finger down my throat and got rid of all the shit I had eaten. God I’m such a cow nobody likes fat people. I went back to my room and slept for the rest of the day.
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