I don’t know how long I can ignore it,
Your seeded tension, fidgeting in the back on my mind
Like background music
Tempting me to say the words I can’t say.
Words I won’t say!
Words kept inside by a fence, placed months ago
By the half that believes in unconditional love,
The part of me that thinks - it will get better, right?
But your voice continues to sting me
Your thoughtlessness making my eyes water,
I have no choice but to hide in the place I know brings joy.
Where you can not see me hunch, sigh, and cry.
A place I know I am safe from judgement,
And there, I put myself back together again
Ready for the next onslaught,
Ready for your words, ready for my silence...
And round I go.
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