Devils Control

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Poetry  |  House: Booksie Classic

This poem is about losing control in your life, losing faith. & what I am trying to say in this poem is that don't give up on God, cos he never gave up on you, don't do what I did.
keyword : Shaytan = devil

I feel like sometimes bad things happen and there nothing you can do about it
Everything good comes to an end someday,
Nothing lasts forever
Although everyone is telling me how I lost my faith
That I’m too negative
But I can’t change my past and bring him back
So how am I meant to believe that there is still good left in this world?
When every step I take destroys every living cell in my body
My past won’t allow me to move on
It hunts me down until it crushes my ambitions
There are so many things in my life I regret
If I could rewind my life back, I would erase the mistakes that were made
I let the people who don’t even matter to destroy me
Thinking that everything happens for a reason when it doesn’t
When I’m just deluding my self so I can feel better
But by burying my head in the sand makes my life worse
It won’t allow me to face the reality anymore
Allah is trying to put me on the right path
But I chose to ignore it
Because shaytan is getting in control of me
He whispers in my ear & says that I’m not worth anything
I should just ignore what everyone is saying because no cares
And that there is nothing I can do that will change my life
So why bother?
I close my eyes and I could hear someone calling my name
It’s my granddad, he is telling me not to do this
That I have my whole life ahead of me
And I can succeed but in order to do that I have to gain my faith back
I listened to what he said but I chose to ignore it
The selfish, narrow minded me has destroyed my faith and my life
All I cared about was blaming everything on him
Because he left me all by my self and allowed me to turn the way I am now
I live in this agony and I feel like there’s nothing I can do to change things
But there’s something inside me telling me I don’t have to this
And yet again I chose to ignore
Because I’m following shaytans steps
He has brainwashed me and told me I’m worth nothing in this world
I’m getting manipulated by him that I can’t even see what’s real and what’s fake anymore
It’s like my eyes can only see negative ness around me
As time goes on I struggle to cope with all of the pressure and depression
It feels like the world has turned its back on me
And I just want to disappear from this place
I don’t want any answers or explanations
I just want to evaporate from the earth
But something suddenly knocked some sense in to my head and it opened my eyes
I began to see the reality
Of the mess I made around me
And of the hurt I brought to the people around me
It seems like I am the one who turned my back to the world
I have signed my life away to the devil
My soul is starting to fight for way out,
I’m trying to win my life back
But I feel like I’m suffocating
I’m stuck in the cage with other lost souls around me
I look at them and realise that it’s not just me who goes through tough time
And I was just too weak to cope through it by my self
I start to feel angry and confused
Because I don’t know what to do to fix all of the this mess
I start to ask my self that how can I do this to my self?
How can I fall in to the trap of this creature?
My body starts to heat up and burn
I can’t do anything to protect my self anymore
It’s too late for me to put anything right
My soul will remain in the hands of the devil
I will continue to suffer the way I do now,
Because I was to selfish to realise what was going on round me before
My lost soul will remain lost as I lost my life


Submitted: February 11, 2011

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KillTheDeserters

Oh wow. The way the first line and the last two lines contradict each other... you say it is beyond your control, yet you feel responsible (in a way). Very interesting. I am sorry if this is all true...

Tue, February 15th, 2011 9:49pm

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Thank you
Yeah it's everything I have experienced unfortunately.

Tue, February 15th, 2011 11:46pm

Colby

This is a great piece of poetry, keep it up :D

Wed, February 16th, 2011 8:36am

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Thank you =)

Wed, February 16th, 2011 1:43am

AsiaRacineCeline

Amazing. I can relate to this,even though I'm not muslim. Love it(:

Sun, February 20th, 2011 12:14pm

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Thanks hun.

Mon, February 21st, 2011 3:40am

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