I Lost My Faith

Poem by: Perfect92

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Just the way I felt.

He said he will always be there for me

Through thick and thin

But as time passed by, his words turned in to ashes

The ashes that were blown away by the soft wind

Angel took his soul and said he was needed in heaven

My heart broke instantly, I struggled to breathe

The thought of never seeing him again killed me inside

He left me in this world all alone

It felt like someone just ripped my heart out

All I have left of him was the memories

The memories that started to disappear slowly

I started to forget who I really was

What was the purpose of my life?

I felt lost and abandoned.

As I grew up I never understood why he left

I blamed my self because I thought it was my fault

As if I made him leave,

I hated him for leaving

I cried every night hoping that he would come back

But at the end I lost the hope

My heart never healed the day he left

It seemed like I had a permanent hole

The hole which my blood has leaked out of

And left my heart empty forever

Years went by and I still haven’t forgotten him

Turned eighteen and still haven’t realised why he left

I went to visit his grave and couldn’t help bursting in to tears

Suddenly it felt cold, my body started shaking, and I felt cold hands around me

Nine years without him felt like getting shot in your heart over and over again

I felt like I have disappointed him in every step I took, I lost the hope in life,

I closed every door that tried to help me

I felt depressed and upset every single day

My life didn’t seem to matter anymore

Until one day when I saw him in my dreams

He asked me if I still remembered who he was

And I answered of course, how can I forget?

He said you have forgotten what I said to you

And you have lost faith in your life so therefore, you have forgotten who I am

I answered back and said I’m not who I used to be,

My life has changed from bad to worse

My ambitions were crushed by depression

He answered back and said look inside your heart

And remember who you are

You are more than who you are now

He started to disappear slowly

I tried to grab on to him but it seemed like as if I was just catching air

I begged him not to leave me, and said that I can’t live without him

But he looked at me and said I would never leave you

Whenever you need me, just take a closer look in your heart and you will find me

I tried to figure out what was happening

That’s when I realised that through out those nine years, I thought he was gone

He never left me, he lived inside me

And that’s when my heart felt whole again

I got my faith back on track

Rest in Peace

Submitted: February 11, 2011

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Deaks

I like it, plenty of emotion, but not just a raw outpouring of emotion. Good stuff.

Fri, February 11th, 2011 6:41am

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Thank you =)

Thu, February 10th, 2011 11:12pm

Obe

I reallly like this :) It's beautifully written and I can imagine how it feels. Amazing :) Nearly had me crying! :L

- Obe x

Fri, February 11th, 2011 11:50am

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Awwww thank you =)
I appreciate it a lot

Fri, February 11th, 2011 6:06am

KillTheDeserters

Very good! I've had... similar experiences... but with a different outcome. But it rings true and is very heartfelt, beautiful :)

Mon, February 14th, 2011 11:26am

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Thank you very much =)

Tue, February 15th, 2011 6:35am

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