Not as simple as I thought

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Poetry  |  House: Booksie Classic

People walk in and out of our lives, we just got to be strong and be able to let go of them because if they don't stay that means they are not worth it.

Life is what you make it out to be
Like they say; if you believe it you’ll achieve it
But most people stopped thinking like that
And some expect a lot from just too little effort
But what do you when you lost all the hope you had in life
Because everything you had started to fade away
As if it never happened or existed
Like people started walking in and out of your life
I thought life was simple, with simple daily routines
But I realised that it has a deeper meaning
And as you grow up you realise that it’s not about fighting what game you want to play
Not anymore…Is about fighting for your own survival now
But how can you survive when people who were by your side, who supported you,
All of a sudden are the ones who are kicking you down!
Whenever you are tried to get up and think positive,
They were the ones who find a way to hurt you, to make sure that you were destroyed
It’s like three in the morning and I am still awake,
A sit there thinking about the past experiences,
All the good times and the bad times in my life…
And wonder why, why did it all happen? Why me?
I don’t think anyone would ever understand how I feel; I wish I could change how I feel
But I can’t, there are things in my life make me who I am today
But at the same time they depress me, because I can’t stop thinking about them
Neither can I move on from them.
If you saw what I saw, feel what I feel, you’ll understand everything
I’ve lost really close people to me
They said no matter what happens, they would still be here
But they showed their real self’s when they turned their back to me
They think I don’t notice how they talk, how they act
But I’m not stupid; I notice many things around me
I saw all their true colours, and I may be sad
But at least I know the deal now, about who is real and who is not
Why are my days so dark?
I feel like I have constant grey cloud over my head.
Every single day I am waking up in the depression,
And none of it makes sense to me…
I should be happy that I got rid of those people,
But it seems like I get sadder each day….
Trying to figure out why… did I do something to them for them to act the way they do
Maybe it’s not them?Maybe it was all me, that’s why they all leave…
My eyes filled up with tears, I felt so worthless!
Not even my “friends” wanted to spend time with me.
All the beautiful things I had now turned ugly,
I didn’t have any more bright days left in my life…


Submitted: February 11, 2011

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KillTheDeserters

:( this is very sad. I hope things work themselves out...

Tue, February 15th, 2011 9:46pm

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Thank you.
Hopefully in time they will x

Tue, February 15th, 2011 11:45pm

Colby

Well anything you do is fantastic this is great too

Wed, February 16th, 2011 11:15am

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Thank you very much =)

Wed, February 16th, 2011 6:20am

Deaks

My comment would be exactly the same as Colby's. Great stuff.
I hope some day we get to read about how happy you are and how things turned in your favour.

Thu, February 17th, 2011 8:51am

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O thanks Deaks =) x

Thu, February 17th, 2011 7:23am

AsiaRacineCeline

Wow...very powerful. Really speaks to me

Sun, February 20th, 2011 12:18pm

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Thanks =)

Mon, February 21st, 2011 3:41am

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