If suicide was easy

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Status: In Progress  |  Genre: Poetry  |  House: Booksie Classic

Before bed thoughts..........

If suicide was easy I'd already be dead

With bloody wrist , choke wounds, and bullet holes in my head

That's how they'd find me this morning in bed

Everything covered in dry red 

 

If suicide was easy I'd be so glad to be free

free form the demons and sins that haunt me

and most of all free from the screams and voices in my head

that constantly remind me of my inferiority

 

If suicide was easy how glad I'd be to die

maybe my soul can feel something

because my fleshly coffin/body can't feel things right or even cry

More and more I feel this world would be better if I just said goodbye

 

If suicide was easy, if only it were easy

I 'm so alone and isolated and I try to hide behind a smile

But that only conceals my awkwardness for a short while

No matter what I do I'm completely lost

If one person in this world can really help me or love me

I'd give them anything no matter the cost

 

If suicide was easy , and there was the knife ,

and I had to contemplate ,

What's meaning of living in this life ?

I'd slide the sharp end across my neck,

for I've only seen all the loveless horrors and bleak futures

they keep up all night

 I'd elect to end present and future strife .

 

 

 

 

 


Submitted: December 14, 2015

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Keke Serene

Holy... Wow. This was a really sad poem. One I could Definately relate to... Excited to see where you take this, as it's still in progress. I like the fact that you say "if suicide was easy..." I'm so sorry for your pain! The world can be so wicked, make us feel so unworthy of our space on earth, isolation and loneliness warp the thoughts in our heads to make us feel bad. I'm glad you're still here. You're good at writing! And strong people are what this world needs, people like you :) now you probably don't think you're very strong. But you haven't given up. Notice that I didn't say haven't given up yet! I don't intend for you to! And a little flame of yourself doesn't want you to die either! Fan and ignite that flame. It'll be hard, of course it will be. Life is hard, sometimes harder for other people than most, people like you and me. It's hard for me too to feel like I belong. Actually, most days I know that I dont. But sometimes you have to be content with where you are, know that you're doing your best- and more forward from there. Comparing yourself to others is such a crippling thought process that many fall prey to! But you can break the cycle! Look up and be free...! Not belonging in society is very much a good thing, seeing how it's so shallow and full of selfishness, greed. You're real- and real people belong on this earth. :) I wish you all the luck and if you ever need to talk, I'm here. Take care of yourself. :)

Mon, December 14th, 2015 11:36am

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Thank you ????

Mon, December 14th, 2015 9:55am

Jeroen Elout

Strong poem, well written. If I would commit suicide I would prefer to just swim away in to the sea then drown and get eaten by fishes, it would make the fishes happy and no one would have to clean up the mess.

I'm looking forward to more of your writing.

Mon, December 14th, 2015 11:45am

Gaea Killarny

Sad yet so strong. so true of all the feelings one feels when the dark passenger takes hold. Great work.

Tue, December 15th, 2015 6:59am

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