That day.. Was today.

Sitting in class hidding.... Not wanting to be alive. Wanting to run, scream. "WHY!!!" You can't you have to smile keep that happy face on. You need to be heard but you promised, you telll no-one. He tells you not to worry. All you can do is worry. I'm afriad, I tell him. I dont wanna go through this feeling every morning again. He said you dont, dont you dare start again. You haven't thought about it for a long time. You haven't even considered it. Life is well in your world. You are happy. You thought he was too.You though this was all over. He comes back all you can say is I cant believe you. You are crying now. You just wanna die. You wanna dissapear. You dont want to. NO STOP. Here I am happy smiling nothing has bothered you all year. No drama you tell yourself. But when you look at him all you want to do is cry. He has these scars from the last time. Hes arms are still red, when he shows you, you remember the blood, you remember the blue skin. You remember the marks. I just want the memories to fade and go away. The cuts. The skin. The everything you think about it is crazy. How can you always be there for everyone when no-ones ever there for you? You need help. You find out stuff is just starting the thing you have been dreating the most. Its here be ready..