I never thought one summer could ruin everything I had tried so hard to build. I never thought the mistakes I made would get out and cause as much trouble as it did. I never wanted this, and I never meant for any of this to happen. Summer 2010..\"its going to be the best\" That's all I heard through out the last months of 2009. \"Can't wait!\" \"Gana party!\" \"Its gana rock!\" I on the other hand wasn't looking forward to the summer. I wished it would just get over with. I-at the time- wasn't in school so summer didn't seem like a big deal to me. I had been staying a lot at my friends house, who is much older than me. I wasn't happy with my life at home and being there was the only way to get away. When summer 2010 did roll around we started hanging around a guy. Not just a guy. My best friend. At least he was at the time. I loved him with all my heart. And I loved being around him. I watched that summer as he fell in love with my friend that I had been staying with. I also watched as he found eyes for me as well. We drank most of the time we were together. I did it for him. I did it because he asked me to. I was happy to do what ever he wanted me to, just as long as he would stay my friend. The last time I drank with him I got into a fight with him. He got so angry he walked away as I tried to hold back tears that threatened to spill over my eyes. I texted him after that night and got him to open up to me a little..but our friendship and what little realationship we had had been ruined. As the summer passed I told another friend all about the summer and about him, and how I felt about him. I still do not know why she did, but she told her mom and word got around. Her parents hate me and my mom now. My mom still doesn't know what happened this summer. I think about him every day and how I gave him my all. I can't find it in me to blame him for what happened to my reputation. I know things will never be the same for me. But I look back on that summer and all I can do is smile. I smile because while I made the biggest mistake of my life, and practically threw my whole rep in the trash I spent the summer with my best friend, and got to know if only for a moment what it was like to have him look at me the way I have been looking at him for years. Summer 2010 Ill never forget you.
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