Dumb & Lost

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Romance  |  House: Booksie Classic
Love life still at 0.

Submitted: April 23, 2016

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Submitted: April 23, 2016



" I love you, I love you more, and I love you the most" is what you always tell me. 

You never gave me the chance to tell you that I love you way more.

I never got the chance to show you or even shower you in my love because I was afraid.

I was afraid of being hurt and left behind. I was broken and torn apart before I met you.

It was hard for me to show you my heart but ... now it's too late for me to tell, show, or give you anything.

So if you're reading this then.. I love you more.

I told you a million times to cheer up even when I was upset because you're all I care about.

I honestly thought that you were unhappy with me so I tried my best for you.

I bought you everything I could afford because I wanted to cherish you with all I got.

I gave you all of my time and effort because I knew you were worth everything.

I did everything I could to brighten up your day because I love you.

Do you still remember the first time we met each other?

We were just strangers and we had nothing in common. 

But there was something about you that made me wonder.

So I went to talk to you and it quickly got to me.

I didn't know how powerful your smile was because it made me in awe.

I didn't expect that just looking at you would make me feel like this.

You made me look dumb and lost in front of you.

You made me look red as a tomato..

It's not fair because ...

How am I suppose to talk to you if i'm like this.

I knew by then that i fell in love with you and I felt this way ever since then.

I didn't want to tell you this because you were with someone else back then.

But when I had the chance to make you mine; I obviously did.

When you were mine, I was the happiest and I wanted to share my happiness with you,

but my happiness wasn't close to enough for you.

I thought we could be together everyday or see each other often,

but all I could do is text you how much I love you.

We were completely different from each other, 

but I still didn't want to lose you.

It was amazing at first but you slowly drifted away...

The day you told me that you had to leave back to your country for a month made me upset

but it got worse when you told me that you will be engaged as well..

I knew that everything will end soon but I told myself to be strong for you.

I could felt that you're drifting away whenever we kiss so I tried to hold onto you whenever we do.

I tried to be happy in front of you for the last few days together but all I could do was look away.

I cried every night so you wouldn't figure out.

On the last day, I gave it my all to be happy with you

but when you left me..

I couldn't tell you how I really felt because I was still dumb and lost.

Now without you, I feel empty and dead. 

Life seems pointless and everyone I talk to seems boring.

My spark ran out of flame because you aren't here anymore.

I still want you to be happy and I want you to forget about us.

It doesn't mean I'll forget about you or even hate you.

I can live without being happy.. 

So for me, Please be happy and I won't bother you anymore.


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