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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Fantasy  |  House: Booksie Classic

Another version of new moon. Not completely but near the end.

Enjoy! This takes place in the middle of New Moon....Things change alot.

It’s been a year and a half since he’s left me. I still didn’t mention his name nor did anyone else. But I have been getting comfort from Jacob. Maybe more comfort than only a ‘friend’ should get. I was sitting on my couch in my house alone watching some CSI show. I lifted my sleeve to study the small cuts that I’ve made months ago. They were fading. I trailed them with my finger and jumped when I heard someone knock on the door. I got up and answered it. Jacob smiled and then licked his lips. "Hey." He said in a husky voice. I smiled and then hugged him tightly. I inhaled his scent of pine trees and rain. He smelt so good that I couldn’t pull away from him. He wrapped his arms around my waist. "You’re acting like you haven’t seen me in years." He said in a rough voice. I smiled and then pulled away from him. "Well that’s what it feels like. You’re constantly being kidnapped by Sam and his pack." I said running my fingers through my hair. "Well a wolf’s work is never done." He chuckled and then closed the door. I sat down on the couch and he sat next to me. "So, what’s the update?" I asked. Jacob slowly looked at me. "We couldn’t sniff out her scent. It stops at the river and then just disappears. We didn’t know what the hell happened." He shrugged. I didn’t know why Victoria hated me so much. Once Jacob told me that he was hunting her, I felt more safe but more worried for him.

I got up and looked out of my window. Jacob laughed a little. "Bella, I highly doubt that she’s outside right now as we speak. She can smell my scent and she knows not to fuck around here." He said. I looked at Jake confused and then a smile appeared on my face. "What?" He asked. I folded my arms and my grin became wider. "I never heard you drop the F-bomb before." He shrugged and looked at me. "There’s a first time for everything, Bella." His voice became deep. I rolled my eyes and sat back on the couch. Jacob paid attention to the TV and he had a disgusted look on his face. Some woman was crying while a guy was leaving her. I winced a little. That’s almost exactly how it happened with me and……him. Jacob scoffed. "Really? Like her world is going to stop spinning because of one guy. That is just so pathe-" He looked at me and noticed my pained expression. I sighed deeply and shook my head. "Oh shit, Bella, I’m sorry. I’m an ass. Please forgive me." I smiled a little to let him know I was okay. He pulled me over to him and I laid against his chest. I placed my hand on his muscular chest. I seriously couldn’t resist. I leaned my head against his warm chest and listened to his abnormal fast heartbeat. I looked up at him. "It’s beating fast because of the adrenaline. The adrenaline gets us going. Gives us enough strength to shift." I cuddled more into his chest and he ran his fingers smoothly through my hair. "Jake?" I asked. "Hmm?" He asked still stroking my hair. I bit my lip afraid to say it. "I, um, truthfully don’t think I’d be here if it wasn’t for you." I admitted. I heard his breathing become uneven. "What do you mean?" He asked. I pulled away from him and then lifted up my sleeve. I showed him the cuts and his breath hitched. "Bella…….." He said in a low voice. He stared at the cuts. He leaned down and softly kissed the fading cuts. I relaxed as his soft warm lips touched my skin and I actually liked it. When he stopped, he looked dead in my eyes. I looked back into his dark brown ones. I love the way the lamp on the table reflected on his eyes. Jacob slowly leaned in about kiss me but I pulled back. "Jake." I said letting him know that he couldn’t. He grabbed my hand and pulled me towards him. Our faces were inches from each others. Our breathing matching each others.

His smell of pine was urging me towards him and I couldn’t help the way my heart accelerated. He grabbed the back of my head and forced me to kiss him. At first I tried to pull away but he kept me where I was and I began to enjoy it. He grabbed my waist and made me straddle him and pure lust was seeping out of me as his lips touched mine. I savored his taste. My lips went down to his russet colored neck and I nipped at it. He let out a small groan. I shouldn’t be doing this. I really shouldn’t but at this moment, I wanted this. Jacob stood up with me still against him and he laid me on the couch. He laid on top of me and his lips were at my neck. I closed my eyes and made an unexpected moaning noise. Jacob’s hands slowly went up my shirt, to my bra. I never been touched like this before and it was a new and exciting experience. Jacob's lips went back to mine and I nipped at his bottom lip. He sat up a little and took off his shirt. I couldn’t believe how much I wanted him right now. I never felt like this…well not for him. I craved his touch, his smell, his need to want me. "Bella," He softly breathed into my ear. I loved the way he said my name. "Hmm?" I said unable to speak. " I love you." He said. I sighed and tried not to cry. The last person to tell me that was……Edward. I pushed Jacob off of me and sat up fixing up my clothes. "I-I’m sorry but you needed to know." He said. He clutched his shirt in his hand. "Why would you say that? You know I still love….Edward." I said. I tucked a piece of hair behind my ear. "So you don’t even think of the L-O-V-E word all because your vampire ex boyfriend left you? That’s really pathetic, Bells." His tone harsh. I felt a small hint of anger towards him. Wow. Harsh much? "Jacob, you don’t know what it’s like to love someone so much it hurts and not being able to have them." I spat at him. "Actually, I do." He said staring into my eyes.

I looked down for a second unable to look into his eyes. "Jake, I think you should go." I said. Jacob threw his shirt onto the floor and got up. He paced around the room. "So you let him come onto your life and fuck it up by leaving you. Bella, I know you’re stronger than that." I shook my head. I wasn’t strong enough. I let my love get in the way of everything and I didn’t know that my high school vampire romance would get cut so short. "Bella, I could be better for you. Healthier, smarter and just…better and I could prove it." His lips went back to mine and he tangled his fingers into my hair. I pushed him away. "Jake. I can’t." I said. He sighed and I saw the anger in his eyes. "You should leave." He grabbed his shirt and slipped it back on. "Fine." He opened the door and slammed it. I sighed and got up to lock the door. I knew Jake was mad because I didn’t love him back but I knew that my feelings towards Edward would never change. He’ll be the only person I share my love with.

When I woke up the next morning, Charlie was sitting on my bed watching me. "I’m sorry, Bells. I didn’t mean to wake you." He said. I rubbed my eyes and shook my head. "No. You didn’t wake me. What’s going on?" I asked. My voice was almost inaudible. "I have to go away for two weeks in Chicago. It’s a very important case I have to do. I’d ask you if you want to go but I highly doubt it." He doubted right. "Yeah, I need to stay here. I have to…apologize to Jake." Charlie nodded. "Okay. I’m packing now. I’ll be back in two weeks." He said. I nodded as he kissed my forehead. He walked out of the room and I grabbed my cell phone. I dialed Jacob’s number and held the phone against my ear. A rough voice picked up the phone. "Hello?"



"Can you come over soon? Charlie’s leaving and I want us to talk."

I heard him sigh over the phone. "I don’t know Bella. You basically threw me out of your house last night."

"I know Jake but I need you here with me. Please?" I asked.

There was a short pause as if he was deliberating. "Okay. Give me fifth teen minutes." He hung up the phone and I did the same. Charlie hugged me one last time before leaving and gave me his emergency number. I waved as his car drove off. Then, a few minutes later, Jacob arrived in the rabbit. I always loved his car. He got out and walked towards me. I stared up into his eyes. "I’m so sorry, Jake." I whispered. He smiled a little. "Me too. So what do you want to do today?" He asked. Good question. I got in the shower and did my hair and afterwards, me and Jake went to the movies to see Sucker Punch. It was interesting. Not normally my type of movie but it was better than I expected. After the movie, we went to the beach and hung out with his wolf pack. They had beer and hamburgers and chips. Jacob picked up a beer. "Are you even old enough to drink?" I asked. Jacob looked at me and grinned. "No but who cares? Charlie is gone so who’s going to arrest me?" He asked. I smiled and shook my head. "One minimum." I said holding up my index finger. He nodded. "Yes, mom." I chuckled and he grabbed my hand over to the beach. They had loud music playing and Jake sat down his beer bottle and began to turn me around. "Uh, no Jake. I can’t dance." I laughed. "So?" He asked "So? Don’t force me." I replied.

He suddenly had an evil grin on his face. I narrowed my eyes. "What?" I asked suspiciously. Jacob suddenly picked me up bridal style. I gasped. "Jake, what are you doing?" I asked. He started running towards the water. "Jake! You better not!" I screamed. He laughed and tossed me in. The water was surprisingly warm and inviting. I laughed as I stood up. The waves ended up knocking me down though. I heard Jacob’s laugh and I was addicted to it. He came in the water with me and helped me up. "You okay?" He asked with an amused expression on his face. I shook my head. His face turned apologetic. "Oh. Bella I’m so-" I jumped on him causing him to fall into the water. He laughed and sat up in the water. "You’re going to pay for that." He said. I gave him a teasing look. He grabbed me by my waist and brought me down with him. I screamed playfully. "I told you." He said. I sat up in the water with him and he stared into my eyes. He placed his fingers through my wet hair and brought me to his lips. The kiss started out slow. I wanted to tell him to stop but what if he gets mad at me and leave again? I didn’t want that. Jacob’s lips were in complete control as the kiss became deeper and deeper. I pulled back slightly. When our lips disconnected, he opened his eyes. "Do you want to go somewhere quiet?" He asked.

"Yes." I answered. I realized that I didn't say yes to make him happy. I said yes because I really did want to be alone with him. But I felt slightly nervous as he grabbed my hand and led me out of the water. We walked to the wolf pack and everyone smiled at us. Grinning because they knew me and Jacob liked each other. "We'll be back." Jacob said. Everyone whooped and cheered. I blushed and looked down at my bare feet.

Jacob led us to a quiet spot that was in the woods. It felt good out here. He let go of my hand as I walked and felt the crunchy leaves under my toes. I didn't like going in the woods by myself. It always reminded me of that...day. That day when Edward left and also left a hole in my chest. Funny thing is, when he left, he took away all the stuff he ever gave me. He took my love with him also. Stop it Bella. Get the thoughts out of your head. You're happy with Jake now. I suddenly felt warm hands on my waist. I closed my eyes and breathed out a breath out from my nose. I turned around and opened my eyes. Jacob's lips pressed against mine and he pulled my waist against him tightly. His hands tangled in my hair and then slid to my lower back. His warm body felt so good against mine. I wasn't use to this kind of warmth. I felt jacob lift my shirt. I pulled away to look at him. Was this right? It felt just about right to me. I couldn't help the fact that I immediatley thought of Edward. I took a deep breath and then lifted my shirt and took it off. Jacob smirked at me and then ran his fingers over my stomach and then stared into my eyes. He was so beautiful. Edward was beautiful too but his features were more perfect and flawless. I couldn't exactly see all of Jacob's flaws but I knew they were there. It felt kind of good to see the imperfection of a human being. I knew I was imperfect and it just made me feel human when I was with Jacob. His lips were on my neck and it felt good. I closed my eyes. This wasn't wrong. Was it?


Edward's POV

Alot of things were on my mind. Even after all that's happened. She was out of my life and I guess that in a way, it was for the best. I walked through the dark streets. My throat burned with anticipation. Not an animal in sight but plenty of humans around this city. A woman was walking along with a guy and they looked like a happy couple. I smelled her delicious scent and I inhaled deeply. Damn. So good. But her smell did not make me no where near as crazy as Bella's blood did. My throat ached and I wasn't going to put my thirst off any longer. New life...New habits. I crossed the street and slowly follwed the couple. No one was around. It was a vacant street and all the buildings around were abandoned. I picked up my speed and I began to read their mind as I followed.

She's perfect. I wonder if I can rip her out of this dress. Even if she doesn't want it, I'm going to give it to her. Hopefully she won't fight it or scream. No one's around except for this idiot that's following us. The guy thought. So he was aware of my presence. Fantastic. He dies first. I quickly ran and appeared in front of them. The woman screamed. I grabbed the guy by his neck. He choked and gagged as I slammed his head against a brick wall. He fell down with a loud thud. He fell to the ground. I smelled the blood from his open wound. I got down on my knees and the blood coming from the side of his head. I had to have it. I clamped my mouth down on the wound. I took in the warm dark gooey blood and never felt more satisfied. I felt myself looing control as I closed my eyes to savor the taste. I felt stronger. When I was done with him, I stood up and wiped my mouth.

I listened to the woman's thoughts as I followed the way she ran.

Okay, don't panic. Everything's fine. This is a dream. This is a dream. Stan isn't dead. He's not. Just go home and lay down.

Not going to happen, lady. She turned around and I hid in an alley until she turned back around. I continued to follow her. When she turned around again, I was behind her. She screamed. I covered her mouth with my hand. "Shh." I said softly. She tried to push me away. This was not working. I showed her my sharp teeth and her eyes grew wide. "It's okay. I promise, sweetheart. I promise. Just relax." I took my hand away. She slowly backed away. "Are you going to hurt me?" She asked.

I shook my head. "No. I'm going to kill you, but I'll make it quick." Before she could let out another cry, I ran up to her and snapped her neck. She fell to the ground, her body limp. I bent down and sunk my teeth into her neck. Her blood was much sweeter and smoother. I felt so much stronger and satisfied as her warm blood filled me. I was a monster again.

Bella's POV

I laid down on the leaves and mud completely naked. I didn't care about how dirty I got, I just wanted Jacob in the worst way. I felt bad though, even though I wanted this, I felt like I was kind of doing this for his satisfaction.

I felt slightly embarrased and nervous as he climbed on top of me. His naked body on top of mine. It was scary but yet curiousity leaped through me. I wanted to know what it was like. Edward was afraid to hurt me but it was easier with jacob.

It was easier to be relaxed and simple around him. His soft lips covered mine for one second before he slowly pushed in. It was a painful, sharp pain that caused my entire body to tense up. I didn't hold in my small whimpers as the pain ran over my whole body. Jacob distracted me by running his lips over my neck and jawline and over my lips. I felt a little relaxed as the pain slowly faded away.

"It's okay. Go on." I breathed. Jacob nodded and pulled back a little and pushed in a little deeper. I dug my nails into his back as he filled me with a mixture of pain and pleasure.

My body shook and I close my eyes. Unexpected moans slipped out of my mouth. I felt myself getting closer to something I've never experienced but somehow, I knew it was coming.

Jacob kept softly whispering my name in my ear as he kept pushing in and out. It was getting closer and closer. I cried out as I felt a warm sensation spread deep inside of me. I never imagined how good it would feel. I never imagined it would feel this good. I breathed deeply and opened my eyes. Jacob sighed. His head nuzzling my neck. He pulled back a little to look into my eyes. I stared into his. We both smiled at the same time. "That was......" Jacob started. "Amazing?" I asked. He nodded and then kissed me.


We got our clothes back on and then looked at eachother. It was a small awkward feeling. We don't know if we're still best friends or......more.

It kind of worried me. I knew that doing this would effect our friendship but I guess I didn't care because I was lost in the moment. Me and Jacob walked out of the woods and went back towards the rest of the wolf pack. Seth smiled and whispered something to Leah. She glared at me. "Well, were you two having fun?" Embry asked. Quil and Jared howled with laughter. I blushed. Jacob sighed and then led us away. "Are you okay?" He asked me. I looked up at him. "Yes. I'm fine. I just was embarrased, I guess." I said as we walked near my car. "I feel a little sore." I commented as I stopped walking. Jacob nodded. "I know. You want me to take you home?" He asked. I nodded. Jacob got in the driver's side and closed the door. I got in the passenger's side. He drove me home and we walked into my house. Jacob sat on the couch in he living room and I sat down and laid in his lap. "Feel better?" He asked.

I smiled. "A little." I answered. He smiled. "Good." He said. He leaned down and pressed his lips against mine. Chills ran down my body although he was over 100 degrees. The phone rang. Jacob slowly pulled back as I got up. It was probably Charlie checking on me. I picked up the phone and held it to my ear.

"Hello?" I asked.

"Bella." Said the voice. I knew who it was. I recognized the soft velvet sound to his voice. It was Edward.







Submitted: November 29, 2011

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kmu? this was amazing! i loved it! plz make chapter 2?

Tue, December 6th, 2011 11:51pm


Yes....of course

Tue, December 6th, 2011 8:01pm


awesome thx! :)

Thu, December 8th, 2011 10:36pm


no problem

Thu, December 8th, 2011 8:56pm

Dean Talbot

Not bad at all!

Wed, September 12th, 2012 4:53pm


thank you

Thu, September 27th, 2012 2:26pm

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