Breaking Point (working title)

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This is the first charter to a short story I'm writing about a person who's life drastically changes, just when they think everything is over.

Submitted: March 05, 2015

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~Chapter One 

 Today was the best day in my entire life. I mean... I didn't think it was even possible for things to turn out this well for someone, but here I am, with my amazing story to tell; living proof that increble things are possible. Yeah I know this sounds a bit cheesy, and you might not believe what I'm about to tell you, but that's fine. I'm not here to convince you of anything. I'm writing this because I think it could really help people get through whatever it is they are stuggling with. And if nothing else it should be entertaining so read this or don't, it's up to you. Now back to my story...
 Well like I said, today was incredibly amazing. Which is funny because up until last night, my life was pretty miserable and to be completely honest, I was at a breaking point. Something needed to change or else I was going to do something terrible that I could never take back. Okay I'll just say it -- I was going to kill myself and finally end my suffering. Yes, things had really gotten that bad. I felt like I was stuck in a cycle of worries, fear, anger and frustration, never feeling satisfied with anything. Every day I would try to make things better, but no matter what I did, things would either stay the same or get worse. It seemed as if I was doomed to a bleak life. Thinking back, I don't know how I could've even thought of ending my life, but I was this close to throwing everything away, and well, I'll just say that I am eternally grateful I'm still here... But let's go back to last night before I go any further.
 It was about 9:00 at night. I was laying in bed, wide awake, trying to get at least some sleep before my alarm went off for work. I kept mulling over all the negative thoughts i usually did when I couldn't sleep; Worries about work, bills, myself, regrets about the past, you know, pleasant things of this nature. I was already dreading getting up in the morning, but now that I couldn't sleep, I was even more miserable. "Not only do I have to work in the morning, but I have to work with no sleep... great." I thought. I considered calling in sick so I could just stay in bed all day, but I had already used two sick days in the last two weeks and my boss' patience was already wearing thin. And even if I could get the day off, my measly paycheck would be reduced to something more pitiful than it already was.  
 When I start to worry like this, there's only one thing that tends to somewhat cheer me up, and get my mind off things. And that's fantasizing about death. Oh yes, I've imagined all sorts of wonderful ways that I could die and never have to worry about anything ever again. Meteor strikes raining down on me, trains tearing me apart, boulders crushing me. When I wasn't dreaming of my demise, I'd wish that a UFO would abduct me and take me somewhere far, far away. But tonight, none of this seemed to help. As much as I tried to push away reality, I was still all too aware of my situation.
 Then it occured to me, "Why not just end it for real?". I had never seriously contemplated suicide up until this point, but I couldn't think of any reason not to do it. No one would miss me, I wasn't contributing anything of value to the world. If anything, I was making the world a worse place with all my misery. After a while of thinking like this, I stopped and seriously thought "Is there really any reason I shouldn't kill myself right now?" I was at a loss for words for a matter of minutes. Then I firmly made a decision (something I rarely did). And at that moment, I actually started to feel a little better. Pretty soon all my worries would be over and I wouldn't have to suffer anymore. My problems were done with, forever and all I had to do was... well, I hadn't really thought that far ahead. Now I needed to figure out the next part of  my great plan... How would I do it? 
 Okay let me just say that this next part of the story is where you might say "What? I don't believe this, I'm outta here..." and  while everything I'm saying is 100% true I can understand why someone wouldn't believe me so you know what? let's just skip forward to the next part of my story, and we'll come back to this section later. Okay, so moving on to this morning...
 ...I awoke feeling completely rejuvenated. Normally I would hit the snooze button a few times, and when I finally did get up, I would be slow, groggy, and feel auful. But today, I awoke before my alarm even went off, and I wasn't the least bit tired. I was full of energy and though I was unsure of what exactly I was going to do, I knew I no longer wanted to just lay in bed. So without hesitation, I quickly threw back my blankets and almost literally jumped out of bed, with a look of surprise and excitement on my face. "Ha ha!" I exclaimed " I can't even remember the last time I did that." The sun brightly shone through my blinds and immumiated my cozy studio apartment. Quickly I moved to my window, almost running in my excitement and I pulled up my shades, letting out an audible gasp. I never thought that I had the best view from my building, but today it seemed absolutely gorgeous.
 After being stunned for a moment, I fully opened  my window and just stood there in silence, taking in the sights and sounds of the city. I could see a briliantly shining sun hanging in the clear sky along with a few fluffy white coulds. In the distance I could see the mountains which usually were covered in fog, but today they were crystal clear, and snow-peaked. About a dozen dark colored birds were soaring through the air with great purpose, and a few smaller birds were in a nearby oak tree, chirping beautiful songs that tickled my ears as I listened. The smile on my face grew bigger. I could feel and hear a warm gentle breeze in the air, as I saw people going about their business. Some quietly walking on sidewalks, others driving around. Even the low rumble of engines idling, and cars taking off down the street seemed pleasant to me. All the while I am enjoying this view, there is a worderful scent of fresh baked bread from the bakery down the street. And though It was subtle, I could smell the flowers in a nearby garden I had never noticed before.
 By this time, several minutes had gone by and I was still standing there with a huge grin on my face; I wasn't worrying about a thing, nor did I care about anything at all. In fact, my mind had gone quiet. I was at peace, and didn't feel the need to think about anything at all.


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