It’s not your burden to carry anymore,
Lay it down.
It’s time they were laid to rest.
You’ve carried them all far too long.
Burdens weighing on you,
holding you down.
A Family lacking in support, lacking in love.
Friends turning on you,
ridiculing you as they depart,
tearing you down to all who’ll listen.
It’s time to lay down
all your fears and insecurities.
Distance has always separated us
But now it’s a chasm,
An unfathomable divide.
I wish I could’ve picked them up
taken them from your shoulders
even if only for a little while.
What should I have said,
what could I have done,
what would’ve made a difference.
I tried being there,
through the weeks that became months
and the months that became years.
Being there was my way
of showing my friendship
of showing my support,
of showing my love.
What did you see,
what did you need from me
what should I have done,
what could I have said.
Lay your burdens down.
Only those of us who walk the Earth
have burdens to bear.
My burden now includes sorrow
A type of which I’ve never known before,
An aching, a loss,
an increased feeling and awareness
of my own inadequacies’
both as a friend, and as a person.
Why don’t I question more,
confront problems more.
If I did would you still walk this earth?
We talked that night, you and I,
small talk, mostly meaningless,
of your Halloween and
of you making a new friend.
A forever friend you called her.
I didn’t know that forever would be so short
or come so quickly.
While we talked were you
setting up your queue on Tumblr
the sequence timed to display
only after you were gone.
Your last picture and last tweet were enough
To bring me to my knee’s.
When did you take that final picture
the one that won’t leave my mind’s eye,
tears brimming in your eye.
What caused that final Tweet,
Your last words to the world,
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