As You Wanted Me

Poem by: ShaunaLeigh

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Knowing someone was only with you to hurt you but loving them anyway. Knowing they left to kill you off but it didn't work. You wan't to please them so you guess the best thing to do is make things end like they wanted them to.

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Submitted: December 12, 2009

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Submitted: December 12, 2009

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I push at the walls
They refuse to fall
I scream at the ground
That refuses to swallow me whole
So I pick myself apart
Piece by piece
To finish off the job
That you started
You deliberately made it my fault
To try to kill me off
Slowly
But then you left
But don’t worry my love
It’ll be my final act
I can guarantee that
 
Every remark
It hurt but it barely hit me
All of those moments
You struck hoping I’d drop
But I’m still standing
Don’t you panic I’ll make sure
That I’ll meet the ground quite soon
Because I know that’s what you wanted
I’d rather please you
Than live a life without the person
That made it all worth it
All the time planning
 
You never loved me
Your intentions were clear
But I kid myself that
We were meant to be
Then you left
It was the final strike
But somehow my heart still beat
Nothing stopped
Not even my love
So ‘cause it was what you wanted
I’ll tie the knots
They’ll find me in the morning
 
My wrists still have the marks
From your hands
The imprints won’t rub off
Your grip was too firm
To be honest I want it there
I want reminders
To tell me that it really happened
And I wasn’t dreaming
I bled for you but
Now I’m dry
I feel like I didn’t give enough
Now that my scars have healed
The bruises turned green
Now I can feel
You wanted me numb
So I’ll take my Novacaine
To block the synapses
Between the nerve endings
But I still feel pain
Coming from another place
You knew what you were doing
When you left me
Now I’m empty
 
I felt for you
You stepped away
I wanted your hate
It told me you still cared
In a sense
I hope that you still want me
Want me dead
At least I know finally
I’m doing something right
I’ll leave open my eyes
So I can see the light
Just to make sure
That it does arrive
That way I can see you smile
As I take my last breath
And struggle with my goodbye.


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Knowing someone was only with you to hurt you but loving them anyway. Knowing they left to kill you off but it didn't work. You wan't to please them so you guess the best thing to do is make things end like they wanted them to.
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