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This Isn't Me

Poem by: ShaunaLeigh

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About pretending for so long to be someone you're not and not realising how convincing you are and how much of the real you is slipping away.

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Submitted: November 23, 2009

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Submitted: November 23, 2009

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The person they see
Isn’t really me
What they think
Isn’t what I am
You get the feeling
You should stop pretending
But I’ve done it so long
It’s easier to go on
Than it is to stop
 
Why do I do this?
To myself
To those around me
Why do I carry on?
When I know it’s not right
It’s the worst form of wrong
I’m slowly killing myself
With what I’m trying to be
Only I can see
This isn’t me
 
Hiding behind
Whatever I find
That works
Never knowing
That this show
I’m putting on
Isn’t extremely convincing
To those who used to know me
Wish I could explain
But it seems it has to be this way
Never going to stop
Though I hate it so much
I’m going to carry on living
My so-called life
 
It’s a stranger
The person I’ve conjured
The part I’m playing
I’m not much of an actress
The mask is sliding down
You see through me sometimes
Moments where I’m translucent
And everyone can read me
If their quick enough
And not already convinced
That this is me
This isn’t me
 
If they bothered to look back
To take a moment to think
Reality would hit them
So hoping they'll do the same
I focus on the present
It’s the only thing safe enough
Who will I be tomorrow?
I don’t want to look forward
I’ll keep me head down
Only looking up
When the curtain closes
 
I’m losing grip on who I am
Slowly slipping through my fingertips
I’m holding on yet trying desperately
Not to leave my fingerprints
I can’t leave any proof
I’ll play the clueless girl
Since I’m so good at playing others
Hopeless when it comes to being myself
 
Why do I do this?
To myself
To those around me
Why do I carry on?
When I know it’s not right
It’s the worst form of wrong
I’m slowly killing myself
With what I’m trying to be
Only I can see
This isn’t me


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About pretending for so long to be someone you're not and not realising how convincing you are and how much of the real you is slipping away.

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