I may lie in bed crying beause of some hurtful words you said, but its my fault. I keep going back just like nothing bad has ever happened. I don't know why i put myself through it. I try so hard and all you want to do is change me. In the end the reason i go back is because you remind me so much of myself. When i see you cry my memory takes me back to when i felt the same way. When i needed someone to hold me but no one was there. Looking into your eyes makes me remember who i am. There are so many things that you do to remind me of myself. The way you put a smile on your face and pretend that its real, i seem to be the only one who can see right through it. Thats just like i was. The way you hide behind a joke when people get to serious. They way you tell everyone your ok when your falling apart. You are afraid just like i still am. Now seeing this make me realize how God puts people in our lives that reminds us of ourselves because he wants to show us how far we have come. We are still reminded that we wish someone would have been there for us. Now its out turn to help the people that is in the shoes that we were in. Because i know how much it hurts and i want to help someone realize it will be ok. I guess thats why i keep running back to you. In some odd way i'm helping myself too.
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