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A girl writes a letter to a close friend describing why she needs to leave him after so long.

Submitted: December 23, 2011

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Submitted: December 23, 2011



To You,

I feel like I really need to say these things. I can’t say them to your face – it’s too late now. But they need to be said. I feel like this is the only way.

The first thing I need to say is “sorry.” I’m sorry that I never got the time to explain everything to you. I’m sorry that I distanced myself from you in those last few, precious weeks. I’m sorry that I kept secrets from you. I’m sorry that you got angry with me. It was all for the best, though. I couldn’t bear to tell you everything only to have to leave you. I’m sorry I never got the chance to say a proper goodbye. You thought it was only until tomorrow. I knew better. I’m sorry I can’t tell you where I’m going. I’m sorry we won’t ever see each other again.

I also need to tell you something I’ve been hiding for a very long time, longer than I can remember. I love you. There, I said it. I think I probably realised it at the beginning of high school. I could never tell you, though. We were such good friends. I couldn’t ruin the only friendship I had with silly feelings. But its how I feel. I’ve never gotten over these feelings, nor have I ever felt this way about any other person in my life. Ever. I love everything about you – your eyes, your smile, the sweet things you said to me, the silly things we did together, and how you make me feel. You, for the first time in forever, made me feel happy. Before you, I couldn’t remember what happy felt like. If I was in the worst of moods, on the worst of days, all I had to do was hear your voice and I would smile. You mean everything to me, and I can’t believe that now, after so long, it’s ending.

I can imagine you reading this and thinking “What is she going on about? Leaving where? Ending how?” Well, I think now I can tell you, but I’m going to warn you. You do not want to hear this.

Three weeks ago, I was diagnosed with breast cancer. Remember that day that Mum and I left town for a couple of days? She took me to get tested after I found a lump. Since our town doesn’t have a proper hospital big enough to treat me, my family have decided to move away. Believe me when I say that I want you to come with me, but it’s better if you don’t. I want to tell you where we are going, but I have made the decision not to. I wouldn’t like for you to see me like this. Please don’t try to find me. I’m sorry I never told you. I never wanted you to worry about me.

By the time you get this letter, I’ll probably already be gone. I never wanted it to end, let alone like this. I know all I’ve been doing is apologising, but I really am sorry for everything. I will remember you for the rest of my life, and everything you’ve ever done for me. You are, and will remain, one of the most important people in my life.

I love you with all my heart. I’m sorry.

Love, me

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