Depressed Diary

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My cousin Marleigh committed suicide in January of 2007. She was a great girl and I can only imagine what she went through, seeing as she never came to me. But than again I was too young to under stand.

Submitted: October 18, 2011

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Submitted: October 18, 2011



Jan 25, 2007


Dear Diary,


I'm not with the girl of my dreams anymore. I can't understand. She said she loved me.

She said I was everything.

That she only wanted me. I thought we were going to get married.
I can see now that I wrong. She brings that guy over. She brings to my house, where my heart still bleeds from the pain.

I can't live without her.

She's everything. I love her.

Does she think I'm a toy? Something she can keep coming back to?

I drink my beer and take the pills.

Do I want to go out this way? Drunk and high? Or maybe I just want to overdose and die that way. What am I going to do?

She isn't there for me anymore. She never was.

He is her everything. She loves him.

I wonder, what does she feel when she looks at me? What will she feel when I'm gone? I think I'll go today...

We'll see....



Entry Con.


NO! I can't do this anymore. I'm alone without her. I can't breath without her love. I can't be helped this is it, I'm gone. never again never again. Never!!!

Whoever reads this, I'm sorry.

My heart is shattered.

My heart is broken.

I am alone

and beaten.

He can have her

She can have him

To their selves

I wont be here to ruin

them no longer!


MMR....for good.




Marleigh loved her girlfriend with all her heart.

One day they broke up.

Soon, Marleigh was found with a noose and a rope.

From her back yard tree, Marleigh lost her life.

She was gentle soul.

Now she is no more.

Her heart was broken.

Her body beaten.

She was only twenty, almost twenty-one.

If she would have waited, it would have past.

The heart break was too much, for Marleigh's young soul.

And still I wish to see her walk through my door.


Some can't imagine the pain I go through, missing my favorite cousin in the whole world. Years have gone by but I miss her like crazy. Still, years will continue to pass me by, and I'll miss her, like it was just yesterday I found out. I cry and cry for her, and I wish she were still here. I wish I could have been there to see her through the pain, the heartbreak. Nobdoy knew what she was going through and still nobody knows. We can only guess what it felt like to lose her life the way she did. We can only guess what it felt like to lose her soulmate. No doubt in my mind that Marleigh and her girlfriend were meant to be. No doubt in my mind that Marleigh is in heaven. When I grow older and start my family, Marleigh Marie is going to be the name giving to my first baby girl. Marleigh May, in tribute to my cousin who gave her life to Depression.

R.I.P MARLEIGH MARIE. We love you, now and always.

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