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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Romance  |  House: Booksie Classic
About a girl called Tiffany who's life ain't going too good.

Submitted: December 31, 2008

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This feeling of loneliness is enough to put anyone off of this life. I get the feeling every day that I no longer wish to carry on this life. If it wasn't for Craig I wouldn't be here right now. I've lost count of the times I've tried to commit suicide. But every time Craig has been there to stop me, pulling me to safety. I love that boy. My only true friend. I just wish I could be a better friend to him, helping him like he helps me. Of course, I try to help I'm just not very good at sorting out things, that may be the reason I am so messed up at the moment. But at least I try, it's better than doing nothing.

Well like I said I'm messed up at the moment. My parents kinda hate me. It's not a nice feeling to be honest. I've tried so many times to run away but everytime I end up at Craig's house and he tells me to go back home and apologize. I swear I wouldn't be sane without him.

I remember when I was 14 years old I got so wound up, I had cuts all up my arms and had tried hanging myself numerous times. I was in my room, I had about 10 fresh cuts. I didn't think anyone was home so there was no need to cover my arms up straight away. I liked to watch the blood pour out of the wounds. It relaxed me, The touch of the sharp blade as it pierced my skin. I watched the pattern the blood made when it spread across my arm, so beautiful..

I should have known better and to cover everything up immediately. But with all that's going on at the moment I guess I couldn't think straight. It was only when my bedroom door flew open that I realised I had made a stupid mistake..

I saw the horror stricken look on my mother's face - A look I shall never forget - as she saw the state of my arms.
"WHAT HAVE YOU DONE TIFFANY !?!?!"
"Uhh.."
She looked at the knife sat on my dressing table.
"Oh my god ! JOE GET IN HERE !"
My Dad came running into my room seeing the same dreadful sight my mother had seen.
"T...Tiff....W..W..Why?" His voice wobbled.
"Like you would care !" I cried as my eyes starting watering.
"YOUR SUCH A STUPID GIRL. WHATS THE POINT OF ALL THIS ?"
I couldn't tell her why I did it so i just ran. I ran past her, down the stairs then out the door. I could hear the shouts of my parents telling me to get back. But I just couldn't stand them anymore.

I ran to the only place I felt safe. The edge of a large pond. Craig and I had found this spot about 4 years ago and I don't think anyone else knows about it. That's why I like it here. No one would disturb me. I cryed myself to sleep in that spot when I was awoke by someone.

"Tiff.. Tiffany ?" He gently shook my arm.
"What ?" I groaned.
"Your parents phoned me and said you had run off. I said I would help find you. I knew you would be here."
"I'm not going back, you can't make me."
"I know I can't make you, but I can try."
"Go away" I moaned.
"Fine.. if that's what you want" he started to walk away.
"Wait, Craig, don't go" I called after him. He turned round and I noticed a small smile flash across his face.
"So hunny, what's wrong?" he asked softly.
"Everything."
"Surely not everything. Come on Tiff, what is it?"
"Look." I held out my arm to him. He knew I cut but I had said I would stop. He examined my arm with a serious look on his face.
"Tiff.." Before he could say another would I flung my arms around him and buried my face in his chest as the tears came crashing down.
"I'm sorry, I really am I shouldn't have done it. I told you I wouldn't. I'm such a selfish person !"
"Shsshh, you aren't selfish hunny. Your tired, go to sleep. I promise I'll be here when you wake up."


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