Why so Distant?

When we were friends we had so much fun

But i really really liked you and I was ready to risk our friendship for something more

You said you and I shared the same feelings and that made me the happiest person alive

You said you were happy that you have a person like me by your side

You said that I could trust you with anything

You promised you would never hurt me intentionally

Then why are you doing this? Why have you changed?

I told you even before, if you want to avoid me then just tell me

Just don't start avoiding me out of the blue

I told you, if u have any doubts about me then just ask me

Just don't start misunderstanding and question my loyalty

We used to text every breathing moment when we were just friends

But now after starting this relationship, you seem too busy to say hi

I don't think you even know that I exist anymore

You are not sharing any of your problems anymore and you have become so distant

I'm telling myself that you would never avoid me

I don't want to believe that you would ever hurt me

I have stopped texting you because I don't want to appear as desperate

But thats the truth...I am desperate

I want you to text me first, call me first

So that I could prove my restless heart that you haven't changed.

That you are still my honey bunch and sweetie pie

I have been staring at that freaking phone for so long, waiting it to vibrate

Roaming around with it, checking it every thirty seconds

But every time it's the same despiring nothing

No missed calls, no texts, mo messages and no emails

But I'm still telling myself that you would never intentionally hurt me

Are you the same guy I fell for?

Did you really change or is the all my imagination?

Just because I was betrayed before, am I afraid you would too?

I had never been scared to face the truth 

But now...I'm not sure about anything in life