something felt is discussed.

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Non-Fiction  |  House: Booksie Classic
a discourse of an emotion, told as an experience.

Submitted: July 23, 2014

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We’ve all felt it, we all know it. We have all been there. You know the rising skin temperature, the feeling of a flush traveling from out head to our feet. That small quarter sized “core” that appears either in the center of our chest, or the center of our belly, that small core that tells you that if you even twitch an eyelash, you will surely face great pain, injury, or death. While telling you that it locks up your limbs sufficiently that they don’t move, and turns your brain to spouting nothing but pure gibberish.

Yes folks I am talking about fear.  Pure unadulterated fear. There are many things in life that can generate a fear response, and as we all know everyone experiences fear differently.  This document is based on my own fears, and some of the things I have done to keep fear at bay. This is more an exercise in the experience of fear rather an attempt to dissect it as a feeling or emotion.

 

There are many causes of fear, and speaking strictly for myself truly almost everything causes me fear.  So if I am that fearful of everything, where does that leave me, how do I cope?  Well folks, some fears I can face and prevent them from paralyzing me. Others I may not be able. I have faced some fears down to the point they are the merest flash of feeling, others I fight constantly. What I have come to find out by objectively examining all my fears, conquered, faced, or just plain still there is that my biggest fear is fear it’s self.

 

Fear it’s self is not so much a choice, as a result of a surrounding environment and/or situation. What you do with your fear on the other hand is a choice. What I am about to say is a lot easier to mention than it is to put in practice. And that is (if you can safely do it like when you have someone there in case of an emergency) face what fears you can over and over again until the fear can no longer paralyze you. For instance I fear being at the top of a ladder, any ladder extension or step ladder, I am still fearful when I get on one.  So while I am completely comfortable standing on the peak of a roof 40 feet from the ground, I have much fear going through me standing on a ladder that same 40 feet off the ground.  So what do I do? I climb enough ladders that no matter how fearful I am, and no matter how much I shake overriding my body’s natural attempt to paralyze me  I face if not conquer that particular fear.  Yes I am still fearful on ladders, but I have faced my fear enough to be able to work off of one (slow, steady, and sometimes shaking) without being paralyzed.

 

I have faced many of my fears this way, and I believe that while some folks will be able to fully obliterate a fear that has been faced some of us aren’t quite able to do so.  Leaving us to face and overcome our fears at least to the extent that our fear no longer controls us, we control it.


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