Her Superman 3

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Memoir  |  House: Booksie Classic
Part 3

Submitted: August 16, 2012

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Submitted: August 16, 2012

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I don’t know where to begin, but today was my first official day out. I didn’t know simply walking around would hurt so much. Everything made me think of you. From the songs of glee I heard on the stereo to the other song of beyonce love on top. You loved that show and she is your favorite artist. The black Cadillac I saw making me remember you have one as well. This girl had a pink shirt you favorite color. The smile people had made me think of how yours lightened up my day. I hear people’s laughter and realize I will never hear yours again or make me feel the same way yours did. Hearing that annoying song usher sings making me smile for a split second because I remember you singing to it once and that started an argument, because I wasn’t talking to you. how easily we got into fights I don’t know how we did it. I always thought you liked doing them in some way just to make me mad, but I liked getting you mad a bit because things so easily upset you. I would be joking and you not deal with it I would find it adorable and “cute” how you hated being called that. You said it made you feel as though you were a five year old child and that being called that was an insult. You never found my type of humor to be the best you called me very sarcastic something you say drew you to me. I don’t know how that would be a plus but you found it one. At this very moment I am listening to some bach you know he is my favorite composer. Ah talking about composing I don’t know if I should finish what I was going to perform at our wedding. I think I will every story needs a beginning, middle, and end I just thought I would continue writing it as the years would go on, but this will have an ending. I was writing some of it today funny how something I was making especially for you made me forget about you for a while, but as soon as I started playing it all the emotions and memories came to me of what we used to be. I was writing about the first time I asked you to marry me when I was drunk. I have never told you this but I remember asking you to marry me. I know I told you I didn’t and I don’t know why I said no. I guess it is because I didn’t want to know your answer. It would have been a no even though I had known you for over a yr we weren’t together long, 8 months we were together now that I’m counting them on my fingers.  When I was out and thinking of all the things that reminded me of you this random person came up to me and asked if I was ok. I guess how I felt inside was apparent on the outside and I was doing an awful job of hiding it. I guess I truly am heartbroken and it will continue to be that way. My friends said I have to get rid of your pictures but I can’t I keep looking at them before I go to bed just to tell you goodnight. To see your face, I am not ready to leave you any time soon. I see you and for a moment I believe you are still mine. I am still yours maybe not by title but by heart I am. I will continue to be. I look up at the stars and think of you and see the moon shining bright. I can’t help but smile and have some hope because no matter if we are together or how far away you are from me we look up to the same starts and the same moon and sun. el universo escribio que fueras para mi. That sounds cheesy but it’s true you mean everything to me. I hope you are happy doing whatever you are at this very moment. You told me all I did was hurt you and that you wanted “him” back. All you had to do was wait but we both know neither of us are patient. I know you were playing the waiting game for too long and I apologize you deserve someone who is always there for you and I wasn’t that. I just hope whoever he is how special you truly are. My heart hurts with no question but I would think so does yours. I don’t know how much maybe you are already over me, but what I told you that it would take months to even begin to think of someone else was true, at least it still feels that way. Today was harder than yesterday, but with time I hope it hurts less. I don’t know what else to say, but I know I will have more tomorrow. Oh, something reminded me of you today. What is it you may ask? Everything. I love you snowflake.

 

I miss you,
Like one misses
the starless nights
Like one misses a beautiful morning
Not to be with you, dear God,
how it does me harm.

I miss you.
When I walk, when I cry, when I laugh
When the sun shines,
and when it's cold outside
All because I feel that
you are something all my own

I miss you.
Like the trees miss autumn
Those are the nights
that I can't find sleep
you cannot imagine,
How much I miss you.

I miss you
In every lonely step I take
Everyday that
I am alive
I'm dying
Because I miss you

I miss you
When the aurora
commences to give off its colors
In your virtues and with your flaws
For whatever reason,
I don't know,
But I miss you.


I miss you
When the aurora
commences to give off its colors
In your virtues and with your flaws
For whatever reason,
I don't know,
But I miss you.

I miss you… I miss you…


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