Two Options in the World of Love

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Who is it that I love?

Submitted: January 20, 2016

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Submitted: January 20, 2016

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Rolling down the hill, I see a dog at the bottom. Move dog! Mo... Wait…

Mmm… what is that smell?
I struggle to open my eyes. What time is it anyways? I roll over and past the empty spot beside me. Empty. Sitting up, I put my feet on the floor and head to the bathroom. Looking in the mirror, I rub my face. I stretch my arms up above my head with a huge yawn. Looking into the mirror, I start to brush my teeth, and as I finish, I reach for my make-up. Alright… do I need concealer today? No, no. I’m not supposed to be wearing makeup at home anymore… He wants me to be myself. Walking out of the bathroom, I take a deep breath. Eggs. Yum. I turn the corner and see James standing there cooking.
“Good morning.” I murmur in his ear as I wrap my arms around his waist from behind.

I kiss his neck as he laughs. Wow, I have the most amazing fiance…

*

“Well, good morning to you too sweetheart,” I reply with a feeling of such joy. Suzonne...The one person who can always bring a smile to my face no matter what. She is my shelter in the storm and seeing her beautiful face each morning, reminds me of how lucky I really am to have her with me. As I finish cooking the eggs, I turn around and gently lay my hands on her waist. Our eyes meet and I place a kiss upon her tender lips, my hands clasp within hers.

“You look so beautiful today.” I say, stroking her silky smooth hair. We sit down at the table to eat our eggs, preparing us for the day ahead. I’m not quite sure what today will bring, but knowing that I will be coming home to the sight of my lady’s elegant smile and her warm, loving embrace means the world to me.

*

As James washes the dishes, I get up and start to sweep. Humming to myself I dance around the table.
-Tried to find you at the bottom of a bottle…-

I glance up and see James watching me. Putting my broom down, I sidle up to him, grabbing him from behind.
“You know, I don’t like being watched.” I whisper, moving my hands to his waistband.
I laugh when I see his face, the look he gives me. Silly boy.
“I’m gonna’ go get ready for tonight. You remember, right? My highschool reunion?” I nudge him on the shoulder, winking at him.
*

“Oh yeah… High School reunion, I remember,” I reply with a feeling of temporary forgetfulness. I almost forgot that it was Suzonne’s high school reunion tonight. It’s good that she’s reminded me about it.

“I can’t wait to see you in your dress, I’m sure you’ll look fabulous as you always do,” returning a wink as I gently take her by the hand. I then gesture her to dance with me as the music continues to play. Tenderly, I put one hand in hers whilst the other rests around her waist. Together we dance in synchronicity to the tune that emits from the radio, without a single care in the world. Into her eyes I gaze and plant a kiss so softly upon her forehead.

“Hey, maybe you’ll be able to show off a few of those moves at the reunion,” I say jokingly as Suzonne begins to make her way upstairs to get ready.

*

I look at my dress on me. Fitting my curves just right. My hips, my ass, my tits. My hair curled and my make-up freshly done. I smile at myself in the mirror, turning as James walks into the room. I take his hands in mine, backing him up against the bed.
“Did you know…” I ask him, “that I am the luckiest woman alive?”
I place my lips on his, then with a laugh, walk out of the room to the car.

*

After locking the front door we both walk towards the car with arms interlocked, as the moonlit sky shines so brightly. I open the door for Suzonne, unable to take my eyes off her elegance, her sexiness and beauty.The way she walks, the way she talks, the way she dresses… I just can’t describe how wonderful she is. Damn, I really am such a lucky guy! Before starting the car, I reach for her hand, giving it one final kiss.

“I love you sweetheart.”  

I start the car, we pull out of the driveway to make our way to the school reunion.  

 

*
So excited, so excited, so excited!! I can’t wait to see everyone. Oh my god!! The whole way to my old gymnasium I was bouncing in my seat. As we pull up, I practically jump out of the car.

“Let’s go!” I tell James, grabbing his hand and pulling him along.

We get to the front door and get our name tags, then walk in. Laughing, I turn in a circle looking at everyone. I race ahead of James, over to Allie, Kirsten, and Halle. I give them hugs, smiling. Then, as we start talking, I feel someone’s arms around my waist. Smiling, I reach my hand back, placing it upon his cheek. I tilt my head up, feeling his lips hit mine, but as I open my eyes it’s not James I’m looking at, it’s Will.

“Oh my God…” I whisper, looking across the room at James, who’s looking right back.

*

My heart begins to sink to the very depths of my being. H...How can she do this, asking myself the same question over and over again. My feeling of happiness turns to sadness, as the rage begins to take over me. Seeing red I make my way over to where Suzonne is standing, anger echoing from every footstep.

“Suzonne I...I can’t believe you would do this to me, to us!” I say in such disbelief, as tears begin to surface.

“Why…?” The only question I can bear to ask.

I look at this guy and want to just punch him, but I compose myself and decide not to take a swing.

“I...I just can’t believe this,” I mumble to myself, running out of there as fast as I can.

Down the hallway my head spins... Why? Why? Why? I head for the exit to get to some fresh air, hoping to make sense of what’s just happened.

*

I push Will away from me.

“What the Hell?” I shout at him.

“Woah, Suzonne, calm down. I just miss you. Miss us!” he says as he takes my hands in his.

I just look at him in disbelief, shaking my head. No, no, no… this isn’t right at all. Where’s James? He left. He left me. I look up at Will, remembering when he and I were together. Three years? Yes. So, I laugh, letting Will know he has won for now. He puts one arm around my waist and with his other lifts a cup to his lips. I can smell the alcohol on his breath, the weed on his clothes. He starts walking, pulling me with him. I dumbly follow, him leading me through the door and then outside to his truck. He gets in and I follow.
“I need to tell James I’m leaving.” I mutter, taking the beer from him and having a nice swig.

He says nothing as he starts the truck, putting his hand on my thigh as we drive to his house.
*

“I can’t believe it, I just can’t believe it!” I say rambling onto myself in the car-park. How can she do this? How can she just kiss another guy like it’s no big deal? Dammit! I give that girl all the

love I can possibly give her and look at how she repays me!

I head towards the car, catching just a quick glimpse of Suzonne and that ass-hole driving away… But I don’t stop her, I just let her go.

“Ahh what’s the use anyway!” I mumble, heading back to the car on my own. Putting the keys in the ignition, I make my way back to the empty house. Driving away, so many emotions run through me... So angry at what she’s done, the guilt I feel for not stopping her and the feeling of such helplessness, that I’ve already lost her.

Pulling up to the driveway, I can’t hold back the tears. They flow like a river, streaming down my cheeks. The love we had now just seems to have all been thrown away!

I get out the car and head for the door, shaking as I try to put the key into the hole. I open the door and slam it shut behind me...Silence.
*

I yawn, stretching my arms up above my head. God, what time is it? I start to get up but feel an arm around my waist. I grin. James. Rolling over to give him a good morning kiss, I freeze. As I look at Will I remember last night. The reunion, James being mad, he and I leaving, he and I taking off our clothes… Shit! Shit, shit, shit! I look at the ring on my left index finger. Does this mean nothing to me? Oh God. I have to get home… What ever happened to James? Did he go home?
“Will, I have to go.” I whisper as I nudge his arm to the side.

He groans, showing me that he’s still asleep. I gather up my clothes and get ready as fast as I can. Heading out the door I hear him saying my name.
“TAXI!”

The whole ride home I cry. What am I going to do? What will James say? Will the wedding be off? Does what happened show on my face? But then all of my thoughts diminish as the taxi stops. I’m home.
*

I hear the sound of a car pulling up outside the house, refusing to look out the window to see who has arrived. I remain in the bedroom, thinking and wondering as my nightmares from last night come to haunt me once more.

“Where has she been? What have they been doing? What has she been thinking, feeling?” my mind ready for bursting!

“I guess she’s come back to try and set the record straight,” I say to myself sarcastically. How can she come back and try and make amends after all what’s happened now?!

This rage still burns within me, as hot as the fires of hell. Do I answer the door? Do I leave it? Dammit! What the hell do I do?!

I look at the ring that sits so perfectly on my finger, remembering the reason why I had got it in the first place. “We were so happy and we were going to get married,” I silently whispered to myself. “Oh Suzonne, why did you have to go and do this?”

I decide to muster the courage to go downstairs, unbeknownst of what awaits.

*

“James...” I whisper as he opens the door.

I suddenly feel self conscious about the hickeys on my neck. I try to cover them with my hair, hoping he doesn’t notice.
“Will and I went out and ate last night and caught up a bit…” I say, hoping he believes what I’m saying, “and then I went and stayed with the girls at Allie’s place.”

I look up at him, searching his face, his eyes. Nothing.

“James?” I ask.

Nothing. No fucking thing. I’ve ruined it. He’s done with me. I messed everything up. I feel my eyes start to tear up, but don’t make a move to wipe them away. I have to stand my ground…

*

I look to Suzonne but I feel nothing. I feel no emotion towards her, how can I after this?! I just stare blankly at her, with too many questions swimming around in my head.

“Do you really expect me to believe, that you just went out with that ass-hole for a catch-up?! I can’t believe you just went with him willy-nilly. Do I mean nothing to you Suzonne?” shouting in both anger and sadness. I pull the ring off my finger and hold it up to her “Does THIS mean nothing to you at all Suzonne?!” I could feel myself becoming enraged once again, angry at the betrayal.

“I thought that we had trust? I thought that we were a team and that you loved me?” my voice quaking as tears once again begin to cascade down my face.

“I...I can’t handle this right now, I need some fresh air… Some alone time.”

I just can't take being in there any longer, gazing at the one who I thought would never betray our love.

Giving Suzonne one last glance,I grab my coat and head out the door hoping to clear my head and make sense of it all.

*
With a sigh I watch him drive off.
“Great.” I say, trying for the door.

Locked. Perfect. I turn around and sit on the step watching our neighbors go by in their cars. Blue truck, black car, white car, silver car, silver truck, red car, red truck… wait… red truck? It stops in our driveway as I put my head in my hands. Shit.

“What do you want Will? How did you even find my place?” I ask, spitting out his name.

“I just wanted to make sure you got home safe, and Allie told me.” he sighs as he sits next to me.

I glare at him. Why is he still trying?!

“Will, James left and locked me out of the house. He knows I was with you all night.”

“Well obviously you were.” he gestures to my neck, laughing.

How is he laughing?

“Aw, Honey Bun, don’t cry.” he whispers in my ear, pulling me to him, my head on his chest.

I cry, hard, gasping for breath. Honey Bun? Really? He hasn’t called me that in years and now thinks he can just come and ruin my life? But… do I want him to ruin my life…?

*

What a mess! “Things are just so damn confusing at the moment,” I say to myself as I continue to drive on this seemingly everlasting road. My eyes continue to water with tears, blurring my vision. I decide to stop off at the national park to make sense of things.

I pull up at the car-park, surrounded by the beauty of nature. Hmm... This is the place I always come whenever I need to just get away for a while. I park up and decide to make my way to my favourite spot by the lake… So peaceful. I take a seat on the beautifully carved wooden bench, staring at the gentle ripples that appear now and again.

“This all seems like such a bad dream,” I say to myself as I pinch my arm, just to be sure it is no dream. My emotions still running high, I try to think of reasons why my love, my best friend would betray me like this. “Have I done something to upset her? Have I said something I shouldn’t have said? Has she just got bored of me? Am I no good for her anymore?!” I rest my head in my hands for a moment, a temporary relief from the unanswered questions that burden me.

I then see so many couples together, walking hand in hand around the park. I see lips kissing, I see arms around waists, hands clasped together in loving synchronicity.

After pausing to think, my anger begins to subside and I begin to feel so bad for the way I shouted at her.

“Maybe I shouldn’t have been like that with her,” I say to myself, beginning to see sense. “I can’t forget what she’s done to me, to us,” I say, as if talking to my conscience…But then I look at my ring and I begin to see the reasons why I shouldn’t just walk away from her. “She is my best friend, the one I love and the one I fell in love with the very first time we met,” I quietly whisper to myself, tears making their descent, as these happy memories come back to me, like they were only yesterday.

Something inside me then clicks, and my love for Suzonne returns as strong as the day we laid eyes upon each other. “I don’t want to you let you go sweetheart,” I say to myself with utmost confidence and certainty. “I can’t let this idiot ruin all that we have... you’re my world!”

I rush back to the car, in the hopes that she’s still at home.

*

I can’t stop laughing. After I had gotten done crying, Will made me realize it was MY house too, not just James, and that I have a key. Now he and I are sitting on the couch watching a movie.

“Do you think he’ll be back?” I ask Will with a yawn.

“Oh, I’m sure. Doesn’t he live here? He’ll have to get his stuff after he calls off the wedding.” he replies.

I laugh. No wedding? James wouldn’t do that, would he? I laugh, and as Will gets up I stretch. I hear Will rummaging around the kitchen. I know what he’s looking for but I don’t stop him.

“Thirsty?” he asks me, lifting a cup to my lips.

I take a deep, long drink, feeling the tequila burn my throat. He keeps it up. I keep drinking, swallow after swallow. How much more is there? I start to feel dizzy, trying to sit up. Will pulls it back and sets it down.

“I still love you.” he whispers as he kisses my neck. He wraps me up in my arms as I start to fall asleep. He knows alcohol makes me sleepy. I smile, safe in his arms. My love. No, James is my love… I just need some sleep.

*

Returning home, I notice that same coloured truck that Suzonne’s ex drove the night of the school reunion, on the driveway. “Oh this guy’s got some real nerve!” I say to myself gritting my teeth. “I just ought to… Wait no, no, no. I’m not here to deal with him, I’m here to make things work with Suzonne, to make them right!”

I exit the car and make my way towards the front door, still troubled at the fact he’s actually here in our house! Unlocking the door, I make my way inside and find Suzonne asleep in his arms.

“What the hell do you think you’re doing?” I remark with hostility “Oh gosh Suzonne, are… What the hell have you done to her?!”

I rush over to her, to make sure she’s okay. “Suzonne, sweetheart it’s me. Look… We need to talk.” She appears so sleepy though, I don’t know if I’m going to be able to talk to her properly like this.

*

“James?” I see him looking at Will with this death stare.

He has no right. He was only letting me sleep, right? Then I remember his lips on my neck. On my lips.
“James leave him alone. He’s only trying to help. I throw the blanket of of me, it falling off of Will as it hits the floor. Will has no pants on. Shit. Not again. I look down at myself, and shit. No shirt. Funny, hilarious. I’m screwed.
“James this looks bad. I know it does, but I have no idea what happened.” I plead with him using my eyes, hoping he understands.

I hate myself. I hate Will. God, I even hate James for proposing to me. Our wedding is in five days and I’m sleeping around? Good job Suzonne, good freaking job.

*

“Really?!” I say to Suzonne, shaking my head in utter disbelief. “I...I came back because I was hoping that we could talk and try and see if we could make this work, but it seems you are only interested in making love with another man.” Do you even care about US Suzonne?!”

The anger I try so hard to suppress, seems so desperate to erupt from within me.

“ I came back because I realise how special you are to me, the wonderful times that we’ve spent together and I… I want to carry on the rest of my life with you, but when I see you like this with another man, I just get the feeling you don’t give a damn, that you couldn’t care less!”

My mind once again becomes a tangled mess.

“Suzonne...I need to know the truth. I don’t want to keep being messed around like this,”

I never thought I’d be asking this question to the very girl who I was supposed to be marrying in a matter of days.

“Suzonne… You need to decide,” I say with much apprehension and fear, as so much hangs in the balance. “Who is it you REALLY love? Is it me… Or is it him?

*

Will takes my hand as I slowly look up at James. Will has always been there for me, I’ve trusted him with everything. He knows me and my family, they all love him. He has been my other half since the 9th grade…

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Five Days Later

I look at him. My other half, my love… he is my everything. Five days ago I would have never imagined this. I would have never imagined being with him. There was so much drama, and the decision wasn’t hard to make. I knew it in my heart the moment that Will took my hand. I would marry James. I walk towards him down the aisle. Before I put the dress on it all seemed so surreal. I get to him, him taking my hands in his, and we say our vows. As we both say I do, and we kiss, I see Will sitting next to my mother. I laugh, making my way with James down the aisle to start our life of marriage together.

 


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